Naive (Harry Styles Fanfic)

Chapter 28 "I've missed you"

 These four walls around my room were getting narrower and narrower. I was sat on the window’s seat still crying my heart out. I’ve tried to calm myself several times but, how can someone calm down when your sister hates you and your boyfriend’s been a lie the whole time? I was feeling like shit, or worst than that.

My phone buzzed again. I just pressed the red button because I knew it was going to be Harry again. He had called me at least 10 times tonight but I didn’t want to pick it up.

All the I love you’s were a lie, all the moments we’ve spent together were just made up things just to keep me happy, to trust him…

I wiped away the tears from my eyes when my phone beeped again, it was a message this time. I looked at the screen and I had 5 text messages. I didn’t know why but I picked it up and read them all.

“Leah, I don’t understand anything that happened earlier, please, explain me! Did I do something wrong? I love you xx” I pressed delete as more tears were falling down my cheek. The next one popped up automatically and I couldn’t help but read it.

“Leah, please answer me! How did I fuck it up?!! X” Deleted.

“Please, I’m going crazy, just say something babe! X” Deleted.

“Pick the phone please! Xxx” Deleted. And the last one.

“I don’t know what I did but you clearly doesn’t want to talk to me. I will call you for the last time after this text. And then I’ll stop but I just want to tell you that I love you”

I didn’t delete this one. I knew I should have but deep inside I still loved him. My phoned beeped and it was Harry calling. I didn’t know what to do, whether picking it up or not. I had two deep breaths before pressing the button. The green one this time.

I put my phone on my ear and shut my eyes.

“Leah?” he said. His voice was raspy but I just needed to hear it. I wasn’t going to talk, at least not now.

“Leah, please say something?” I looked down and a sob slipped out of my nose. “Leah, it’s ok if you don’t want to say anything but please look out the window” I did what he said to me and he was there, standing near the house. I cried harder when I saw him and closed my eyes.

“Please, I love you, why did I do? I don’t know what to do”

“Stop” I whispered. He shut and I squeezed my eyes. “Stop it Harry. Stop everything”

We both got silent as I was sobbing hard.

“Leah…”

“No… don’t… don’t say anything more. Just leave it all, I’m sick of this Harry, I’m sick of your games. I just… I think the best for the both of us is pretend that I didn’t exist, that you didn’t exist, that this didn’t exist”

“How do you want me to pretend that you don’t exist when I’m madly in love with you? Can’t you understand it?! What you’re saying makes no sense!”

“Harry… please… just don’t fucking lie anymore. I don’t want to see you anymore. Forget me ok? I will” I said and hung up. I pressed my phone to my chest and closed my eyes. When I opened it he wasn’t there anymore. 

I knew this was going to hurt, that it wasn’t going to be easy. He made me fall for him, right deep in my bones, and now I was paying the prize for it. I’ve already told to myself this summer. I wasn’t going to fall in love this summer, love doesn’t exist. At least not to me.

I moved to my bed and cuddled with the pillow as tears were still falling down my cheeks until I fell asleep.

I woke up the next day and heard my aunt talking to someone. I decided to have a shower before facing this new shitty day. Water started running and falling to my skin. I closed my eyes and for a moment I felt like I had no problems, like everything was ok. It was the only moment I had to relax myself, like if the water that was falling to my skin wiped away all the problems on me, but when I stop showering all the problems would be still there, with me.