Instereo Imagines

2am

'Chris'

I hear the clock ticking time flying by as I'm left sitting here on my bed alone.

I wonder why time can't be stopped or even slowed down just a little, I hope one day we can stop time altogether to enjoy the moments we share and let those moments live on forever.

There's a saying, "the only reason for time is so that everything doesn't happen at once". Well maybe that happens anyway with time.

Everything was happening so fast. One day she was a stranger the next she was the girl I was in love with.

She made me feel something, something I haven't felt before. Pain, not the kind where you fall and cry, but the kind of pain that can't be fixed with a bandaid.

The kind of pain that leave your heart obliterated into a million pieces, that's something that can never be fixed.

I long for someone less hateful, then her, I loved the way she lied to me, but it broke me.

I need someone who won't lie to me.

I make my way out of my bed and down the array of steps that lie before me.

I creep down the stairs and make my way out of the house.

It's raining.

It reminds me of her, the way we would always dance in the rain jump in all the puddles, I miss the feeling of having someone next to me, I miss her even though she did wrong by me.

It no longer feels the same, just standing here outside in the rain, I feel cold, unwanted unloved by society, I feel victimised and judged.

But when I was out here with her it, it was something else.

I didn't care what people thought, my heart fluttered at the memories that come next.

Me taking her in my eyes dipping her back and softly kissing her, she would giggle then I would bring her back up and spin her.

Now my whole body feels sore, I decide to go for a walk, all the emotions getting to me I need to walk around to just clear my mind, I'm wet anyway.

I walk to the old playground behind my house, this is one place that I never went with her.

This was my special place no one knew about because it was so small and it was abandoned, even if someone did know about it they wouldn't care because it's not a place where people want to be.

For me though I see tranquility, it's peaceful quiet no ones here to bother me it's just me and my thoughts.

I sit down under a shaded area and watch as the rain falls, I shudder a bit due to the coldness of the weather, I realise I should go home now.

I make my way home, bottom lip quivering, I'm freezing.

I walk inside and drag water into the house, at this point I don't care I just want to take a hot shower.

I let the hot water run over my body. I slump to the floor of the shower and just sit there and cry.

It always ends like this me crying over her, she's moved on found someone better, she did me wrong, yet I still love her I can't get over her, is that so wrong?

I need to get over her.

I get out of the shower and dry myself off, I slip on some tracksuit pants and a jumper, and sit on my bed.

My mind wonders off and before I knew it, I was asleep.

I awake suddenly and check the time 2am.

I guess it will always feel like this, I mean I guess I will always feel like this, cold, unwanted, unloved, rejected by the one person who I cared for the most.

It feels like I'm drowning, but no one can save me not anymore.

Over and over again, the heart ache it hurts.

The time seems to stand still when I'm not with her, minutes feeling like hours, days feeling like weeks, when I was with her time flew by, I guess thats why they say times flies when your having fun.

She still has my heart, but I don't have hers, it's almost like she's playing with me.

I lay down, I remember all the times she would come over and we would lay here for hours just talking about nothing-everything. I feel her heart next to mine, she's here I can feel it, I can't breathe.

But I open my eyes and realise it's a love dream.

She was always telling me I'm out of her league or that I'm too young to fall in love, we are too young to be in love, but she doesn't know, that I know what love is, and I felt love when I was with her, but did she feel it to?

It doesn't feel the same anymore maybe I was meant to learn the hard way, the emotions in my head are making me go insane, was it really meant to be this way?

Look at what she has done to me, I'm a mess.

A/N

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