Instereo Imagines

Dear Diary part 1

(A/N I know this isn't the next song on the EP but idk if i wanna do perfect 10 bc i feel like it'd just be cheesy AF, but let me know if you do want me to write it bc I'd be happy to, just I feel like it would be really cliche or whatever BUT ANYWAYS also im writing this half diary entry half real life sort of idk if that made sense but i hope you enjoy also this is going to be a fairly long chapter so grab some food then come back)

Your POV/ Diary entry

Monday the 20th October 8:43 pm

Dear Diary,

wow first I start writing a diary and I already start it off with the cliche beginning, good job.

Anyways,

Today felt extremely tiresome, not just physically, but emotionally and mentally straining, I couldn't do anything for long periods of time without falling in a ball of sadness *good analogy me* but I don't know, even tonight the stars feel further away then usual, that sounds strange I know, but I guess what I'm trying to say is today I felt even less in touch with reality, like I was in some kind of dream, well more like nightmare.

It felt like  my world was crashing down, just the the waves fighting against the tide, my heart can't take the bullets my mind gives off, my mind is my own worst enemy, I keep on fighting the constant battle that is my mind.

People tell me that this so called "war" I'm fighting is worth fighting, to look up and see the brighter side of life well I say it' s load of bullshit because in the end we regret the chances we didn't take and me not taking the chance to give up on this war could be exactly what i regret 5,10 even 20 years from now, will I still be this miserable thing that wanders around the universe. We are like specs of dust no one cares if you die, only your family and friends even then they get over it, all in all, i guess I'm saying that maybe I want to die, well I already am, I just don't look it but my insides are slowly dying, my brain slowly killing everything that is me, my soul, my heart nothing. I feel nothing

I feel empty.

Well this diary entry just got deep holy shit.

I think this is when I finish today's entry so goodbye to future me who reads this

I take a deep breath in and slam my diary shut.

I stand up from my desk and flop on my bed.

I feel like screaming, crying and laughing because i'm a 15 year old who is writing sappy diary entries that aren't (hopefully) going to be read by anyone but myself.

This is so stupid what is my life i begin thinking.

I check my phone to see if I have any notifications.

None.

"Well  have nothing else to do, so lets sleep shall we." I say to myself or to no one or I don't know anymore.

"Night mum." I yell to my mum who is in the room down the other end of the hallway.

"Night darling" I get in response.

Maybe tomorrow will be different. Who am I kidding no it won't it never is, it's always the same bullshit everyday of my life, and I'm cursed to repeat it.

i am awoken by my alarm, which just so happens to be my favourite song so it makes getting up just the little bit easier. In case you are wondering it's Jet Black Heart by 5sos.

I wake up and get ready for school, like always same routine same everything really.

I begin my walk to school.

I just want, for this day to be different.

Ethan's POV

Dear Diary,

This might seem a bit odd, maybe you know a guy writing a diary and all but oh well.

My family have been making us move all around the place, I understand it's for dad's work, but it gets hard i can't make any permanent friends, never had a relationship that lasts longer then a week, I haven't made long lasting memories in forever, never stayed at a school for longer then a year it's all to hard.

I guess I just want to stay in one place long enough to have a girlfriend, to fall in love and make lasting memories, to have a best friend, to be able to stay at one school and not be known as the new guy. I just want someone to know me completely inside and out, but we always move before I can get to attached to anyone.

I want one to well

I want one day to be different.

"ETHAN HURRY UP OR YOU'RE GOING TO BE LATE FOR YOUR NEW SCHOOL"

I hear my mum yell from downstairs, I shut my diary, grab my bag and run down the stairs to the kitchen where mum is standing cooking breakfast.

"Hi mum." I say whilst grabbing an apple.

"Oh hit Ethan, do you need me to drop you off or can you walk." My mum asks.

"No, no it's fine I can walk, will get to know the place better if i walk." I say.

"Okay then by sweetie have a fun day at  your new school."

I have heard that line one to many times.

As I begin walking, I notice a girl, she looks my age, she also has the same uniform on as me. Indicating that she goes to this school.

I decide to go up to her, may as well.

"Hello, I'm Ethan and I'm new here, and well I don't know my way around that well, would you mind showing me how to get to school?" I ask trying to sound as sweet as possible.

She smiles, and oh my god she has the most amazing smile.

"Sure, I'm Y/N by the way."

"Nice to meet you, so what year are you in?" I ask trying to make conversation.

"Year 10, what year are you going into?"

"Year 10 as well."

"Well at least now theres someone in this grade who talks to me." She says in a whisper, I don't think she meant for me to hear it but I did.

"What do you mean, no one talks to you?" I don't know why but I feel compelled to talk to this girl, not like I like her, but more as I need to get to know her, to know what she's like, to be able to see the real her.

Maybe her and I just want the same thing. For a day to be different.

A/N

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HEY GUYS

okay so this is gonna be a gradual thing my next chapter wont be part 2 but when i post part 2 it will have more to do with the song so yeah

i hope you enjoyed this if you are please vote/comment or whatever

thank you all for the support 

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