Beautiful Chaos

Chapter Thirteen

My heart skips a beat as I wait for his response. “I heard you were going to be in town tomorrow…we should hang out.” He states. I can almost hear the smirk forming on his face.

“Uh I don’t know about that.” I say simply. I can’t go back and “hang out” with Zayn. He’s always trouble, ever since the day he walked into my life.

“Come on Lauren, I know you want to. Don’t you remember how good I can make you feel?” He chuckles lightly as I gasp.

“I’ll let you know.” I say into the phone and hang up quickly. I walk back into the restaurant and smooth my dress out trying to look as calm as possible while my heart has continuous palpitations.

“Everything okay?” Logan asks as I sit down. I nod silently wanting to rid myself of the thoughts of Zayn. “Great, because you came back at the perfect time.” He notions as the food is set down in front of us. I quietly thank the waiter and nibble on my food. “So what’re you going to do when we get back to Miami?” Logan asks the question in the front of my mind.

“I…I don’t really have a lot planned right now. Gina actually contacted me and told me that we had some time off from our ‘dating.’” I say using air quotes.

“So we’re back to that?” Logan snaps quickly. I mentally punch myself in the face for saying that.

“Oh my God I did not mean to say that. Sorry, I’m just not used to this whole dating thing it’s new to me.” I laugh nervously.

“Lauren, it’s okay.” Logan smiles sweetly and caresses my hand on the top of the table. “Gina mentioned it to me as well. She said since we are going back to Miami you and Camila will have a chance to visit your family and friends for a little and that I could do the same. We’ll only be apart for like four days and things will return to how they are now.” Logan explains. I nod silently again, unsure of what to say. Do I really need space from Logan right now? I am fearful that it will cause me to be curious about Zayn without his comfort there.  “Are you feeling okay? You look sick.” He asks.

“Actually no. I kinda want to go.” I say. He nods understandingly and signals to the waiter for the check.

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“I think I’m just gonna go straight to bed.” I tell Logan as soon as we walk through the doors. “It’ll be a long flight tomorrow.” I simply state and walk off. I feel terrible leaving him there but I need time to think. I slip of my dress and throw an oversized t-shirt of Logan’s over my head and crawl under the covers. A light knock sounds at the door and I grumble in response.

“Hey, I uh just wanted to see if you needed anything?” Logan asks sweetly. I sit up slowly and look at him.

“A cuddle buddy would be nice?” I ask with a small smile and pat the space next to me.

“And you call me cheesy.” Logan remarks under his breath.

“I heard that.” I say as he laughs. I watch as he rids himself of his shirt and pants. He pulls on a pair of gray sweats and climbs into the bed with me. I feel his arm wrap tightly around my waist and pull me in closely. He leaves wet kisses along the back of my neck, sending chills down my spine. Within minutes I hear his light snores and his grip loosens in his slumber. I move slightly and his arm tightens again in a defensive act I suppose. What was I supposed to do about Zayn? He was always a problem in my life and that’s why I walked out in the first place. Before I met Zayn life was just good, simple as that. I had an academic scholarship to one of the best high schools in Miami and finally got the courage to try out for X Factor. After the girls and I finished our first tour I was introduced to so many new people and Zayn was one of them. I ran into him at after parties and clubs but he always seemed to be a pretty distant person. When I really got to know him, my life changed as I knew it. He opened my eyes to the world of rebellious youth. He loved, touched, spoke, and treated me like no other person ever had. He treated me like absolute shit but made me feel like the only person he has ever loved at the same time. Sometimes I don’t know if I crave him or the lifestyle I had more. I would never have gone for a guy like Logan and I’m surprised I have so far. It’s always been something about the goody-two shoes type that I’ve been reluctant to get to know. But there’s something about Logan that keeps me interested. I don’t know if it’s his innocence or the light that he shines in my dark world, but I feel like he has changed me slightly in the short time we have known each other, which is why I can’t go back to Zayn. But I have to; just one last time. I have to taste that life again before I give it all away for good. Logan may be guiding me in the right direction but I’m not strong enough to break away from my addiction. I hear my phone buzz on the nightstand and slightly slide out of Logan’s arms to check it. Zayn’s name illuminates the screen and I answer on what seems to be the second ring. “What time is it?” I ask groggily into the phone.

“Two in the morning.” He responds.

“So, why are you calling me at two in the morning?” I snap.

“I knew you were thinking about me.” He says.

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