Illicit Love

17| Broken

Aria's POV

I don't know what made me do it, but I kissed him. I kiss the shit out of him. I wrapped my arms around his neck and he placed his on my waist. He pushed me until we reached the dining table. He picked me up and placed me on it. He stood in between my legs, placing kisses all over my neck.

"Cain..." I moaned.

I wrapped my legs around his waist and put my hands under his shirt and rubbed his naked back.

"I've been dying to have you like this." He mumbled and continued kissing me.

Pictures of James began to run through my head. Flashbacks of him doing the exact same thing.

"Cain, stop." I started to push Cain back.

"What's wrong?" He cupped my face. His lips were swollen.

"James." I simply said.

He sighed and closed his eyes. He ran his fingers through his hair and walked away from me.

"I'm sorry, Cain. I need to talk to James first before we do any of this." I said.

Tears began to form when I pictured me telling James. He is going to be devastated. He is such a sweet and kind man, but I can't be with somebody who I don't want to be with.

Cain was right. I wanted to distance myself from him so I can avoid falling for him. I wanted to move out so I can avoid seeing his handsome face every morning.

"And Janelle, what are we going to do about her?" I began to tear up.

"Don't worry about her-"

"We cannot just ignore that situation. She is my cousin! Do you know how much she will hate me for having a relationship with you?! She will never forgive me!" I began to walk away.

"Aria, you're not in this alone. I'm going to be right by your side." He grabbed my hand.

"I need to just be alone right now. I need to think." I pulled my hand away.

Cain wanted to stop me, but I was already going upstairs, ignoring him.

I locked my room as I went in and laid down on my bed and started to cry. I cried and cried.

James is the sweetest guy and I'm going to break his heart. He didn't deserve this, any of this. I'll admit that my attraction for Cain was growing and I was getting scared that all this would happen.

I have to tell James. What's going to be worse is that I'm going to have to do it through a computer screen.

I got a message from James saying he would be able to video chat with me tonight. I was happy at first because I was going to finally see him, but then it quickly faded when I realized I would have to tell him the truth.

I fell asleep for a couple of hours and woke up with the sound of someone knocking on the door.

I rubbed my eyes and sat up. I walked over to open the door. "Cain."

"Aria, you skipped dinner. Are you okay? Do you want me to bring you something?"

"No, no. Thank you. I'm not hungry right now. Maybe later." I leaned against the door.

"Okay. I'm going somewhere right now, but call me if you need anything." He said.

I nodded and closed the door. I turned on the lights and opened up my laptop. James would be calling me any minute.

A few minutes passed by before his request popped up on the screen. I accepted it and his face was now on the screen.

"Hey, sweetheart! I missed seeing your beautiful face." There was a huge smile on his face.

I smiled back at him. "I missed you, James."

"Are you okay? I can see the sadness in your eyes, Aria. What's going on?" He asked.

"First, tell me how you been. I want to know." I huffed.

"Pretty shook. I just got off the phone with my mom and turns out my dad has cancer." His eyes drifted off the screen.

"I'm so sorry to hear that, James. It must be harder since you're all the way over there."

"It is, but I just have to strong for both my dad and my mom. My mom is pretty messed up right now, but I called my siblings to stay with her for a while."

"That's good. I'll make sure to visit her as well when I have the chance." I smiled at him.

After his sad news, I couldn't bear to tell him that I don't want to be with him anymore. It will destroy him, but I have to tell him.

"James, I have something to tell you and it's just going to make your day worse, but I have to tell you." My eyes were getting watery.

"You're scaring me, Aria. What's going on?" He questioned.

"James, y-you were right. My friendship with Cain grew into something else. You don't know how sorry I am, but me and you cannot be together anymore." I couldn't look at him.

"Y-you're serious? This is a joke. You've got to be joking, sweetheart. Tell me you're joking. Tell me-"

"I'm so sorry, James. I don't want to hurt you and I don't want to be lying to myself anymore." I covered my mouth with my hands.

He angrily stood up from his chair and hit the wall next to him. His back was to the wall and he started to cry. He slowly sat down against the wall and covered his face. I could only see the top of his head, but I heard him loud and clear.

"I'm so sorry. James, I'm sorry." I said one last time before shutting off the computer. I couldn't bear seeing him this hurt. I couldn't take it.

I laid down on the bed and began crying again. I hid my face in the pillow and cried and cried. God, please help me.