Complicated love ( closed )

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Cyn:

       I stared at Joey... I couldn't even get words to come out of my mouth, I was in so much shock.

"Look, I know I haven't been the best person to you, but I really want this. I can't live my life, knowing that I have kids out here and not be apart of their lives. I don't want to be a dead beat dad."

  I wanted to knock him up side of his head, but at the same time, I knew where he was coming from.

"Look joe, I get it. And I'm not going to step in the way of you having a relationship with your kids. Of course me, you and Erica will have to sit down and talk about all of this. And just because you're in their lives, it doesn't mean, me and you will ever have a relationship, or relations, ever."

         He gave off this huge cheesy smile, I don't know why but it made me happy.

         He agreed to what I said, and after another 30 minutes of talking, I wrapped things up, left and headed home.

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     I drove into the driveway, to see Erica's car parked. It was weird because she's usually not home this early.

   Walking into the house, I heard a few giggles.

"ERIICCUUUHHHH" I yelled, and the laughter stopped.

"Umm what's up Cyn, wh.. wh.. why are you home so early?" She stuttered

"Um I'm usually home at this time, why are you here right now? You're never here this early."

"Well I had some work to do, and ..."

Before she could even get her words out, this short brown skinned woman, with a huge butt walked out of the bathroom. She was fixing her skirt, and as soon as she saw me, this huge smile spread across her face.

"Erica, who is this?"

"Oh.. um this is a friend. Business friend. "

"What's your "friends" name, are you going to introduce us, or just sit here and look awkward?"

"My name is Kimberly, "K" for short. I hope I wasn't intruding or anything." She said with this thick southern accent.

Erica rushed her out the door. "No you weren't, you were just leaving, right K?"

"Um yes, it was nice meeting you Cynthia".

          I just looked the girl up and down, not bothering to say anything Back.

"You're not mad, are you babe?" Erica said, as she pulled me to her, trying to kiss me.

I moved my face away. "Na I'm fine. Move so I can go to my bed."

"You mean our bed, and how was your day, what did you do today my love?"

"It was good, i need you to grab the bags out of the car, I went shopping for the babies, and oh I met up with Joey."

Her whole face changed. "You did what?!"

"Joe called, and said he wanted to meet up. We went to Starbucks, and discussed his roles in the kids lives."

"Hold the fuck up, what the fuck do you mean y'all discussed his roles in the kids lives?! I thought we agreed, he wasn't in it. "

"I'm not going to keep him from his kids Erica, as their parents, we needed to have this discussion. He's gonna be in their lives, case closed."

             I knew I was being mean, and maybe it was my hormones, but I instantly regretted saying this, when I saw the look on her face.

"Oh really? So now you two are the parents? After he did all of that fucked Up shit, he gets to just walk back in here and play daddy?! After I've been taking care of you, changing my life for you and these kids, you pull this shit?"

"Wait babe... i didn't mean it like that..."

Before I could even say anything she walked out the door, slamming it.

I sighed, and wrapped myself in the blankets. She'll get over her little attitude and come to her senses, soon enough.

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A few days later:

I still haven't heard from Erica. She hasn't picked up my calls, or came home. This was bugging me, and I realized that I really fucked up.

I drove to her studio, and saw her car parked outside. I got out of my car, and walked into the building.

I didn't know if I was tripping or not, but I felt like everybody that looked at me, was giving me the ugliest looks.

I shook it off, and walked up to her receptionist desk, to ask for Erica.

"Hey, is Erica here?"

The girl rolled her eyes, and ignored me.

Banging on her desk I yelled "IS ERICA HERE OR NOT?!"

The girl started laughing and that made my blood boil.

"You've got a lot of nerve to come here. You treat that girl like shit, after all she's done for you and your kids? If you weren't pregnant, I'd beat your ass myself. "

"Mind your business bitch!" I stormed passed her, and walked into Erica's office.

She was sleep on the couch, and her face was a mess. Her makeup was all over her face, I could tell that she had been crying.

I tapped her multiple times , and she wouldn't wake up.

"Erica, wake up." I tapped her some more, until I realized that there was empty pill bottles on the floor.

"Oh my gosh, BABY , ERICA GET UP." I started screaming, as everybody from the building rushed into her office.

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*excuse any errors - lex