Complicated love ( closed )

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A few weeks later:

            My belly was getting HUGE and I was super uncomfortable. I wanted these babies out of me, ASAP! 

       It wasn't even just because I was uncomfortable, I was just too excited to meet my babies. I couldn't wait to be able to hold them, and admire them. These next few weeks felt like they were going to take forever to get here.

       I decided to do a water birth, with no medication. My doula would come out to my house, we'd set up a pool in the down stairs living room, a photographer would come to capture the moment and my closest friends and family would be there, to experience this with me.

       Me and Erica were on a "time out", we still lived in the same place, but I hardly ever see her. She's always busy in the studio. When it comes to the twins she's here for me, but as far as our relationship, I decided to put a hold on that.

      I love Erica with all of my heart, but I need her to get herself together. Shes changed a lot for me, and I appreciate that, but I want her to be serious about us. I don't want her to just tell me that she's ready, I need her to show me.

     I don't feel like I'm getting what I need, emotionally. And that's really bugging me. I want someone to want to be with me and around me. Someone who's excited to talk to me, and makes me feel wanted.

     I want the cute shit that she used to do. I just feel like people get the person that they want, and figure that they don't have to continue to do what they did to get them in the first place.

          Aside from mine and Erica's relationship problems, I decided to look into opening up another shop, and possibly a boutique. Things are going so well with the one I have now, and the money is great. I'm basically just sitting on my ass making money, and I absolutely love it.
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Buy buy baby
Houston, Texas.

"I spend so much damn time in this store." I said above a whisper, talking to myself.

I probably go into baby stores at least 5-6 times a week. The twins both have clothes to last them until they are well over 2, and I continue to buy them more stuff.

Looking through the parenting books, I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket.

"Hello, who's this?" I answered the phone, even though the number wasn't saved in my phone

"It's Joey... I know you don't want anything to do with me, but we really need to talk."

*smacking my lips* "about what?"

"The kids Cynthia, it's important to me."

"Okay fine, meet me at the star bucks, right next to the buy buy baby. I'm here shopping, but I'll walk over as soon as you get here."

"Alright, good looks."

I hung up the phone and continued to look through the books.

Finding a few that I was interested in, I put them in my basket and walked to another section of the store, where they had all of the baby safe, cleaning supplies- disinfectants, baby proof items and etc.

I picked up a few more things, and headed to the register to check out.

Joey:

I pulled up to the parking lot in front of the Starbucks and I saw Cynthia sitting in her car. I can't lie, she looked good.

She was glowing, her hair looked good, and even though she had this huge belly, deep down inside it felt good to know that she was carrying my seeds.

"Let me get that for you ma."  I said, as I rushed to her car door, to open it for her and help her out.

"Such a gentleman", she said sarcastically and I mushed her face.

"How've you been punk?"

"I've been good, just ready for these babies to get out of me. I feel like I'm going to explode, my skin is stretching so much, and I'm just irritated."

"That sounds terrifying".  We both laughed, as we entered Starbucks.  "Aren't you not supposed to be drinking coffee? Should we just go somewhere else, to sit down and have lunch?"

"I was craving the lemon pound cake that they have here, and i have plans in a little while, that's why I didn't suggest lunch."

"ahh okay. Well let me not hold you up and just get straight to the point."

I went up to the counter and bought the slice of cake for her, and some coffee for myself. She thanked me and we sat down.

"what do you want to talk about Joey?"

"I want joint custody of the twins."

Her eyes widened, as she stared at me in shock.

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*ive really been slacking and I am terribly sorry. Love you all - Lexi 💓 sorry for any errors.