"Ms.Mena do you understand how serious this is? I'm going to have to put you on suicide watch. I think we're going to have to monitor you for a few days, we'll move you to a different part of the hospital and....." Ryan, tried to finish what he was saying until I cut him off.
"Look just do what you have to do Ryan, I don't care. I'm not going to kill myself so chill the fuck out!"
"Look I'm just here to help you, I care about your health and safety Erica"
"How could you care about me? You barely even know me. Just prescribe me some medicine and go."
"See that's where you're wrong, I care about all of my patients."
He wrote down some things on the clipboard that he was holding and walked out of the room. I just sat in the hospital bed with my legs up, and my arms wrapped around them. I started crying, and replays from that night, kept going through my mind over and over again.
Cyn
Being away from Erica and not knowing what was going on was driving me insane. I paced back and forth through my room, wondering if she was okay. I knew that it was my fault that she was in there, and I just couldn't stomach the thought of it.
Alexis stayed with me hoping she'd calm me down, but that didn't work. I knew that I had been unbearable to be around and I genuinely felt bad about it, but I couldn't help it.
Going to my kitchen I raided the fridge. Making a peanut butter and jelly sandwich, and pouring myself a cup of orange juice, I devoured them both and sat down in the living room to watch Tv.
Flipping through the channels, there was nothing on that I wanted to watch. I settled for some cartoons and eventually dozed off. ••••••••••••••••••••••••••
Time jump 1 year later Cynthia :
It had been exactly 1 year later since me and Erica broke up and so much had changed.
To start things off, I had the twins. I was in the middle of walking around the mall with Alexis and our newest friend Jasmine, when all of a sudden I felt this gush of water spill out from between my legs.
Alexis's dramatic self was freaking out the whole entire time. We called my doula and had a pool set up, in the middle of my living room, so I could have a water birth. Alexis actually got in the water with me and helped me go through the whole process, with the help of my doula.
After 17 hours of labor, screaming, crying, yelling, and digging my nails into Alexis's arms from all the pain that i was in, we delivered a healthy baby girl named Nicole (nicki for short ) , and a little boy named Nova. I decided to make novas middle name Charlie, because at the end of the day, Erica picked that out for him and he was a Charlie from the start.
I didn't break up with Erica... she broke my heart and left me. After the whole hospital incident, she told me about the girl from the club, catching something from her, and she said that she couldn't hurt me anymore, so she left me, and our babies.
The whole thing was completely selfish. Like yes I would have been beyond pissed that she cheated, but we could have made it work. I begged and pleaded with her to stay, but she said she needed the space, so I let her have it.
I still stay in the same exact house, Alexis moved in to help me, and I also hired a nanny, but deep down inside I just pray that Erica will eventually come back, and that we can fix whatever issues we had. I know I wasn't the greatest person to her when we were together, and we both made mistakes, but I genuinely believe, that we could have fixed it. ••••••••••••••
Alexis:
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I hired a professional photographer to come over to the house and take pictures of Nova and Nicole, for Cynthia. She asked me to be the twins God Mom, and of course I said yes to that.
Stealing cute ideas off Pinterest i decided to do something simple, and cute with both of them. Erica since Cynthia and Erica broke up, Cynthia changed so much. I swear she's going through Postpartum Depression, and it's scary.
She's so cranky and angry all of the time. She has yet to bond with the babies, the doctor suggested she breast feed in order to fill that bond, but instead she jump pumps and we bottle feed them that way. She just looks and seems depressed.
When she found out that Erica cheated again, she took it hard, but then when Erica left, she was a completely different person. She cried for days, stayed cooped up in her room, I had to force her to eat, and even get up to take a shower. It was horrible.
The only thing or person (I'll just say thing because it's a thing) that got her out of bed was Jasmine.
I am not the biggest fan of Jasmine... _______________________ Sorry for any errors - Lexi Forgive me guys 🌚🌚
