Complicated love ( closed )

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           🎉 H A P P Y 🎆 N E W 🎇 YEAR 🎉

2 hours later
Cynthia:

Getting out of the hot, fogged up, sex smelling car i fixed my hair, and adjusted my clothes. Taking a deep breath, I thought about what just took place. "Did that really just happen?" I mumbled to myself. Leaning against the car, Erica finally came out.

"That was... that was great" she smiled and then pulled me on her. Now she was leaning against the car, and I was wrapped up in her arms pressed against her.

Putting my face in the crook of her neck, I kissed her gently. "I miss you so much." I whispered.

She grabbed me tighter. "I miss you more, more than you'll ever know cynthia." Her voice was shaky, and I could tell that she was about to cry.

"Can we just stop this, please? It's obvious that we both want to be together and love each other so why aren't we together?"

"Because I'm not good for you Cyn... you deserve the absolute best and I can't give that to you."

I grabbed her face and pulled it towards me. Looking into her eyes, tears rolled down both of our faces.

"Don't tell me what I do and don't deserve. You're what I deserve Erica, I WANT YOU!"

         She just stared at me, and more tears ran down her face. I knew that she was genuinely hurt and broken, but I didn't care about that. I want to be the one to fix her, and help her through all of this. We've been through so much, and even through all of the bad times I wouldn't trade any of it for the world. I just pray to God that we can get through this.

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          After all of the antics that happened in the car and outside of the car, we both decided to head home. She went to her house, and I left with Alexis and the kids, to mine. The whole car ride home was silent. I didn't even want to speak on what had just taken place in the car with Erica, to Alexis but knowing her, she already knew. I had this uneasy feeling in my stomach because nothing got solved.

         I mean yes, we had sex and it was out of this world amazing but we still didn't fix us. I said what I said to Erica but she insisted that she still needed time to think and more space. It's been a whole entire year and she still wants space, like how much space do you need to know what you want? I know exactly what I want and it's always been her, but maybe she realized that this isn't want she really wanted...

        I was driving myself insane with all of the thoughts that were going through my mind. I couldn't help but think of where I went wrong, if I wasn't good enough, or if she found someone else. My stomach was in knots, and the whole situation just made me feel like shit.

     Finally arriving home, both of the babies were knocked out in their car seats. Carrying both of them upstairs to their nursery, I placed soft kisses on their foreheads before placing them in their cribs. As soon as I started to walk out, I heard fussing from Nova's crib.

I walked over to see him with his eyes wide open, staring at me. "Come here handsome." He instantly stopped once I picked him up.
Sitting in my rocking chair, I slowly rocked him backed and forth.

"There's nothing wrong with you, you just wanted mommy to pick you up." I cooed at him. I sat there rocking him back and forth until he fell asleep.

Jasmine:

        Chilling with some of my friends, we were all out enjoying ourselves at a hookah lounge.

"So Jasmine, how are you and Erica doing boo?" My friend keyshia asked.

"Oh we're great, that's my baby." I said with a huge smile on my face

"So when are we going to meet her? We never get to see y'all out together, I'm ready to meet this mystery woman that has all of my best friends time."

"Uhh Soon. She's just shy and doesn't like anybody in our business, we like to keep everything low key, cause you know bitches be hatin." I lied, knowing damn well that we weren't together BUT that was only temporary.. soon she'll come to her senses and realize that I'm the one for her and not that trash she's in love with. And if she doesn't come to her senses soon enough, then I'll just have to get rid of the problem. Simple.

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*excuse any errors - Lexi 💖