Complicated love ( closed )

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Chilis 🌶
Erica :

             Walking into the restaurant, I saw my cousin at the bar. Her back was facing me, and she was talking to the bar tender, so I ran up behind her and squeezed her little body. It's been years since we've seen each other, and we had a lot of catching up to do.

              Scaring the crap out of her, I laughed at her reaction. She turned around and hugged me really tight. After our dramatic hug, I sat down right next to her and ordered a Pina Colada.

"Errrriiiii, my baby. It's been forever, how've you been cuz?"

"Symoonee, and I've been okay. You know, just focusing on me and the music. How's your mom? Man I can't believe it's been this long since we've seen each other, I miss you."

"She's good, everybodies good. You should come up and visit sometime. Maybe we can host a family reunion or something and get the rest of our family together. It's been forever since everyone was around each other."

"We should definitely do that, I could probably pull some strings and have it here. Or we could go half on a nice venue, or a hotel and take a huge trip. Whatever we do doesn't matter to me, I just want to see everyone."

           We laughed and talked some more. Ordering appetizers and more drinks, I started to feel weird. I felt like I was being watched but nobody else was in my area so I shrugged it off. Time went on and symone was tipsy. She was flirting with the bar tender and then hanging on to me, I began to get annoyed and was ready to go, but she insisted on staying a little while longer.

       Still feeling like eyes were on me, I completely turned my body around and locked eyes on Cynthia. My heart completely sank to the bottom of my stomach and I turned my body back around as fast as I could. I felt this nasty feeling all over again, the same one I felt, when she first broke my heart. It felt like someone was reopening all of my old wounds, but at the same time, I couldn't help but think if she still cared and loved me.

        Half of me wanted to run out of the restaurant, but the other half of me wanted to go up to her, grab her by the face and kiss her passionately. I tapped Symone's leg and whispered "let's go" but she brushed me off, and continued to flirt with the waiter. I pulled some money out of my purse, started to grab my things so I could go, until I felt a light tap on my shoulder.

"Please don't be Cyn, please don't be Cyn, please don't be Cyn" I thought to myself, but when I turned around guess who it was? Cynthia.

"Hey stranger". She smiled at me, and my heart completely melted.

"Um hi." I responded back dryly. I was happy that she spoke to me, but I didn't want to make it seem like I was thirsty for her attention.

"How've you been Erica? It's been a while since we've talked."

"I've been doing just Wonderful, actually fantastic. How are you?"

"That's good.. I'm happy for you. And I've been good."

  "Well that's good to know. It was nice seeing you, but I have to go now."

     Grabbing all of my things, I moved right past her and went to my car. Unlocking the doors, I sat inside and began to cry to myself. Why were all of these feelings hitting me like this? I know that girl is the love of my life and I want her so bad, but I know that I'm no good for her. She's better off without me. Before I could press start my car, I heard a tap on the window.

Cyn

"Erica, let me in. We need to talk."

     She didn't look at me, and sat there for a while. I tapped on the window another time before I heard the doors unlock. I opened her door and sat down in the passenger seat.

"Look Cyn, whatever you have to say, just keep it okay? What we had is done and over with and I'm finally in a good place. I don't need you fucking with me or messing with my life, so please just go."

   I can't lie, hearing those words hurt like hell,  but I wasn't about to go. I've been without E for way too long. I was getting MY girl back, tonight.

"Erica just please shut up. That's your pride talking. I don't care about any of the back stuff that happened. Words were said, things were done, and we can't take any of that shit back. But you can't tell me what we had wasn't real.... you frontin on me like you don't love me, and we know that isn't the truth. So can we cut the dramatics?"

She looked at me, and I saw nothing but hurt in her eyes.

"No, Cynthia we can not just pick up where we left off. This isn't no fairytale, we can't just come bac..."

Before I even let her finish her sentence, I grabbed her face and pulled her into a kiss. She didn't even fight back.. instead she wrapped her arms around my shoulders and the kiss got even more passionate.

"Cynthia.." she pulled away and looked at me.

"Yes babe?"

"Get in the back seat right now."

Doing as told, I climbed in the back seat and she followed me.

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Excuse any errors / didn't go over it sorry. Lexi 💖