My Crush On Him.

Chapter 20.

Recap:

I put the aid back into it's place and i lay on my bed again.

'I'll go now.' Shawn says. I wish if i can ask him to stay.... i just wish if he didn't leave.

'Okay.' I smile.

'Goodbye Sel.' He smiles back.

'Bye.' I say.

He walks out of my room and i just lay there alone thinking what the hell happened today?

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"Chapter 20."

How the hell even after sleeping i still have this awful headache? I groan on my pillow and get up lazily, I didn't sleep that well.. i had some nightmares I don't even remember what they were now.

In some part of my life all of my nightmares were about losing him.... or something bad happening to him, losing him was my nightmare. Thinking about it now I don't even know how and why i let him make me go through all of that. I was so unfair to myself and i just went through hell because of some toxic relationship.

I put one of my black crop tops on with a black skinny jeans , i style my hair as a ponytail and i walk downstairs. My mom and dad are both sitting on the kitchen table eating breakfast, yes i woke up early so i came down early today.

'Good morning.' I say while i sit down. They both look up.

'Well you're up early.' My dad says.

'Yeah I couldn't really sleep.'

'Are you okay honey? You seem pale.' My mom says with concern.

'Of course mom I'm okay but i just woke up remember i always look like this when i wake up.' I put on by best fake smile.

She looks unsure but she doesn't argue with me 'okay.' She smiles.

Ava brings me some pancakes and puts them in front of me.

'So Selena how are you with your studies?' My dad asks.

'I'm good Dad.'

'Don't tire yourself Selena, and if you ever want any of us around your Mom and I will always be there.'

'Yes honey.' My mom agrees with him.

'Okay.' I smile.

'Well we gotta go now.' My dad says while getting up he kisses my forehead and walks out mom following closely behind him.

I finish my meal in silence alone... i talk to Ava every now and then then i drive to school as usual.

I haven't talked to Ana or Ian I'm afraid of how they'll act with me I really don't want them to ask me anything because talking about it makes me feel worse. After all even Trina doesn't know what happened for real.

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I get into the parking lot and drive to my usual car spot , i see Shawn's car parked there with Shawn leaning against his car so i park my car beside him.
I get out of the car and lock it.

'Sooo you stole my car spot.' I tell Shawn while walking to him.

'You don't own it you know.' He smiles and my heart melts. Why so cute?