Forbidden 2

Chapter 48

Spending yesterday with Harry yesterday was nice. We both know what's coming. We just wanted to enjoy being with each other. He is the man I love. I wouldn't just want to spend the day with anyone else. I enjoy just being able to be close with him. I guess it's because I love him. I love him more than I ever thought I could love someone. I can't imagine being without him but I need to get over it. I just want to make it through today. Today can change so much for us. I don't want it to but it can. That scares the hell out of me. We still have so much to do before our baby is here. I always thought he would be able to help. Who really knows now? I just hope things turn out okay for us. I need them to be okay. We've already had to deal with so much since we've been together. I'm really not sure how much more I can deal with. I already worry about him so much. I know he's worried about me too. We'll figure this all out though. We always do somehow.

I woke up to hearing Harry cry. This is so weird. I don't think I've ever really seen him cry. I know he's been worried about everything. I rolled over to find him sitting on the edge of our bed with his face in his hands. I can't help but feel terrible right now. I sat up, moving closer to him. I wrapped my arms around him, leaning my head into his shoulder. I hate seeing him this upset. I never want to see him like this. I understand why is though. I've had my moments about this. I kissed his neck, "I love you."

I felt him relax a little bit, "I love you."

"Look at me, babe."

He shook his head, "I shouldn't be crying."

"It's understandable. We have a lot that could happen today."

He finally looked at me, "I love you."

"I love you, babe."

"I'm sorry."

I looked at him a little confused, "You have nothing to be sorry about."

"Yes, I do. We shouldn't have to be in this situation."

"It's fine. We'll figure it all out."

"I worry about you possibly being alone while pregnant. I don't want to do that to you."

"I'll be fine. I was alone for awhile before you. I know you'll call me whenever you can."

He moved some of my hair, "I definitely will."

I wiped away some of his tears, "We'll be fine, babe."

"Is Adam even out of jail?"

I shrugged, "I really don't know."

"I just want to make sure you're safe."

"I know, babe."

He softly pecked my lips, "Can we have sex one more time?"

"I'm sure you're coming back home with me."

"We don't know that for sure yet."

I feel terrible hearing him say that. I hate seeing him like this. I really do just want to hope that he comes home with me after but there is a big chance that he won't. I know he has a past. I don't hold that against him. I can't hold this against him either. He was trying to keep me and our baby safe. He doesn't deserve any of this. I do want to enjoy being with him as much as I can before we do have to leave. We deserve this. We've always been so close since we got together. I can't really imagine being without him for too long. I gently pressed my lips against his as I felt him cup my cheek in his hand. I know he needs this. I just want to make him feel better. I know he has a lot going on in his head right now. He's taking this all harder than he has the past couple weeks. I mean he's kind of ignored it. I guess it all really hit him this morning. I feel terrible that it has. He started moving so he was hovering over me, not breaking our kiss. I can't help but smile a little bit. I just love this man so much. I can never get enough of him. I know he feels the same way. I mean if he didn't we wouldn't be like this right now. I mean I get we've kind of had a lot of sex lately but a lot could change today then who knows when the next time we'll be able to be together will be. I do love him so much though. I want to enjoy this while we can. I felt his hand start to wonder. I knew it wasn't going to be very long till it did. He's always like this when we're together. He grabbed onto the bottom of my shirt, pulling it up as far as he could without breaking our kiss. I groaned a little bit as he pulled away, pulling off my shirt. He smirked a little bit, attaching his lips back to mine. They're so gentle against mine. It would be so weird if they weren't. He ran his tongue over my bottom lip and I let him entrance. I ran my hands down to the top of his boxer briefs, messing with the waist band. I don't really want to tease him too much. We are kind of limited on time today. I'm just happy to be with him. I pulled them down as far as I could. He quickly hooked his fingers on my underwear, pulling them off. He slowly pushed himself into me. I can't help but moan. I just love this feeling of being with him. I'll take being with him over a part anyday. It all just feels so right. He started to slowly move his hips like he did yesterday. I wrapped my legs around his waist, feeling more of him. We both moaned. It's so hot hearing him. I love knowing I do this to him. He started moving a little faster. I know we don't have too long to be together. I just want to enjoy this with him though. I just love him so much. I don't want today to change anything. He doesn't deserve to be going through this. Hopefully things just turn out okay for us. I can't imagine being without him anymore. I felt the pit in my stomach start to form. I never last long with him. It just feels amazing being with it. I guess it's just so much better because I love him and we've been like this so many times. I mean that is normal when you marry someone. I feel like this is how it's supposed to be. I mean neither of us really know though. We're both never really has a normal relationship before each other. I couldn't help it as a moan escaped from me. I felt him smirk into our kiss. I know he loves knowing that he's giving me so much pleasure right now. He does everytime we're together like this. I moved my hips up to meet his, earning a moan from the both of us. I love knowing I do this to him. It's always so hot hearing him. I tangled my fingers in his hair as he continued to move. It wasn't very long till a moan escaped from him. I can't help but smirk a little bit as he pulled away from our kiss. I don't want him to pull away yet. This all just feels so passionate. I don't want it to end. I know they it will eventually have to. I just love him so much. The pit in my stomach continued to grow. This all just feels so good. He leaned his head, looking into my eyes. This all just feels so right with him right now. I moved my hips up to meet his again. We both let out small moans. I know I won't be able to take all this pleasure much longer. After a few more thrusts, my orgasam took over, shaking as I moaned out his name. He just feels so amazing. I'm surprised I last as long as I did. He moaned out as he came. He trusted a few more times, letting us ride out our highs. He softly pecked my lips as he pulled out. He stayed hovering over me, "That was amazing, love."

I nodded, "It is everytime we're together, babe."

"True. I can never get enough of you."

Before I could say anything else, he laid down beside me. I moved closer to him, laying my head on his chest. I do want to enjoy this while I can. He moved some of my hair, "If you weren't pregnant right now then you would be after these past two days."

I can't help but roll my eyes. I'm not really surprised to hear him say that. I mean we were kind of trying before. I'm sure I would have defiantly been pregnant by now anyway. We weren't expecting this to happen so soon though. We're happy about it. We should get to enjoy this time but instead we're having to worry about so many other things. He kissed my cheek, "I'm worried about you."

I looked at him confused, "Why?"

"Today could change a lot. I don't want you to have to have our baby with no one else there."

"I've been alone most of my life. I'll be fine."

"I want Liam and Sophia to help you."

I reached over, intertwining our fingers with his free hand, "I know. I'm not forsure I'm a 100% comfortable with that."

"I know. Aren't you closer to them than Niall and Louis?"

"I mean yeah. They actually talk to me. I'll figure it all out, babe. I don't want to bother them."

He started caressing my hand with his thumb, "It's not normal for someone to be alone for months."

"I've done it before."

"That doesn't mean it's healthy for you to do either."

I used my other hand, messing with his wedding ring, "I'll let them help. I'm not sure it's going to be as much as you want them to."

"You just mean everything to me. I don't want anything to happen to you."

"I know. I worry about you when you're away."

"I'll be fine. I'm just going to stick to myself and hope I'll get out sooner."

I shook my head, "That's not normal either, babe."

"Do you just want me to become best friends with murders then?"

"No. That doesn't mean you can't talk to anyone in there."

"I'm honestly just going to want to get it over with. I know I'll have you and our baby waiting for me when I get out."

I feel like we should have had this conversation sooner. This isn't really something we've wanted to talk about. I mean it was mainly brought up when I've cried. I can't help it though. I hate the thought of having to be away from him. We've seen each other everyday since we've been together. I can't help it as I felt tears start to form in my eyes. I know a part of this is the pregnancy hormones. I kind of hate myself because I know I could have prevented this. He should have never had to go through any of his. He pulled his hand away from mine, wiping off some of my tears, "There's no need to be crying already, babe."

"I love you."

He kissed my cheek, "I love you and our baby."

"I'm sorry for all this."

"Stop. You have nothing to apologize for."

"I just feel like this is all my fault."

He shook his head, "No. It's his fault for touching you."

He is right. I know he wouldn't have done anything is Adam hadn't touched me. I could have kept this from happening by staying in my car. He was just trying to protect me and our baby. Hopefully his judge sees his point of view in all this.