Loneliness H.S

Chapter Thirty Three

He stares back and forth between the two of us as if he is not believing a single word we are saying. "Please say your kidding, because this isn't funny." His voice is calm, but you can hear the desperation he is trying to hide behind it.

None of us says a word making him rush towards me. I was scared at first thinking he might do something, but when he takes my hands in his, his touch is surprisingly soft. "Mina, please look me in the eyes, and tell me you don't remember me." He whispers his words only for me to hear. Tears are threatening to spill from his eyes for every second he looks at me.

I have no idea who he is, but by the look in his eyes I know I have to handle this situation with caution. I give his hands a squeeze making him let out a breath almost as if he is relieved to feel my touch again. "I am very sorry, but I think you are mistaking me for someone else." No matter how familiar he seems I have no memory of the man before me. His eyes fall to the floor, and even though he was trying to cover it I can see a tear roll down his soft looking cheek.

"I guess you're right." He says bringing his eyes up to me again. Something in me doesn't believe his words, but if he says so it must be true. If I had ever seen a man as beautiful as him I am sure I would have never forgotten it. He lets go of my hands, but his fingertips linger on mine making a familiar spark rush trough my body.

Louis walks over to us carefully. He place a hand on the man's shoulder trying to comfort him. "Mina, why don't you let me, and Harry talk for a bit." Harry? I am sure I have heard that before. I give him a nod before stepping back a bit. I look at Harry trying to get a reaction from him, but he refuses to look at me. Why was he so certain he knew me? I shake my head before making my way to my bedroom leaving them alone to talk.

Louis's perspective

Mina walks away with a confused look on her face, and I don't blame her. I know her well enough to know that she will ask me about all of this tomorrow, however I am not sure what to say. She has just started to move on, and I don't want to take all of that away from her.

I turn towards Harry to see him stand there frozen with a broken look in his eyes. He has probably gone through hell to get here, and when he finally does Mina doesn't remember him. "Harry I think you should sit down." I speak up gesturing towards our couch where Mina and I previously sat. He doesn't answer me, and just walks over to take a seat. I sit down beside him trying to figure out the right words to describe the situation. "When we first arrived here she was a mess. For months she didn't do anything other then sit in her room. She barely ate, and she refused to talk to anyone except me sometimes. She couldn't deal with the thought of you being gone, it all seemed to real to her you know." I take a breath letting Harry deal with some of the information he has gotten.

Everybody knew it would be hard on her, but no one imagined it being that bad. I can tell by the look on Harry's face that he blames himself, but he did the right thing. He is the only one that could survive in there besides Alexandra, but he didn't want to make us choose. "How does this lead to her loosing her memory of me?" Harry asks not wanting to hear about Mina suffering, it hurts him to much I can see it.

"It gets worse." I tell him with sadness in my voice. It hurt me a lot seeing Mina in the condition she was, and after she lost her memory she got a lot better. She stared laughing again, and smiling. She would go out more, and it just made me happier as well, because she didn't deserve all the pain she was in. "After about five months or so she started seeing you."

"What do you mean?" Harry looks at me with confusion in his eyes. He has dirt all over him, and he looks beyond tired. I am certain this wasn't much easier on him then it was on Mina, so he can probably relate to how she felt.

"Every night she started to hallucinate you, and she grew so attached to you seeing as she refused to realize that you weren't real. It got even harder to make her leave the house, because she wanted to be there when you came back at night. It eventually got so bad that we all decided that it would be best for her if she started going to therapy." A sigh escapes my lips as the memories of that time starts rushing back. I can see that it hurts a lot for Harry to listen to what I am saying.

"The therapist suggested that she could make Mina forget you in an attempt to remove the hallucinations. Mina called me before she made the decision, and I came down there to make sure it was a good idea, and such. It sounded like it could work so I told Mina that it is her choice, so she agreed to do it." Harry rubs his face in frustration. If I were him I would understand why she did it, but I would still be hurt that she chose to forget.

"But understand that it wasn't easy on her, and that she had to relive every moment with you over again. The good, and the bad." I try to reassure him, but it doesn't seem to work.

"So I never existed to her? There is no way to make her remember me?" He sounds numb as he speaks, and it is understandable seeing as he most likely don't know how to feel right now. He loves her, and I know it hurts him beyond imagine knowing he was the reason for her hurting so much she had to forget him.

"No, there is a way." I tell him making him look at me with hope in his eyes. He raise his brows mentally asking for me to continue talking. "The therapist told me she could restore Mina's memories in an object that has a significant meaning to the both of you, so I told her to put them in her necklace."

I rub my hands anxiety. He stands up with excitement knowing now that there is a chance for her to remember. "What are we waiting for? Go get the necklace." He says dragging me to my feet.

"Harry, listen. It's not that I don't want her to remember you, but it's different now. She has made a really good life for herself. She is searching for a job, so she can get an apartment. I just think that getting all of those memories back won't be good for her right now, because with the good also comes the bad, and she needs to focus on herself right now." I tell him ripping away any hope he previously had. I don't want to hurt Harry, but I do want whats best for her. "We can tell her about it if you want, but I won't force her to remember. We can tell her, and if she then wants to remember she can, but if she don't that's her choice."

Harry stands still with his eyes glued to the floor. His mind is most likely trying to figure out what to do, so I just stand here quietly letting him think in peace. "No, I think we should just not mention it. I want her to be happy, and if that is without me at the moment then I love her enough to try and okay with that."

After his words it brakes my heart to say what I am about to say. "I am glad to hear that, but there is something I think you deserve to know. She has been seeing someone for a little while now, a guy named Cole." His breath hitches, and his eyes goes a little wide, but he covers it by looking away. I swear I can almost hear his heart breaking by the news, and I immediately feel terrible for telling him.

Harry's perspective

Mina suddenly steps into the living room making our heads snap in her direction. She takes a step forward, the light hitting her eyes, turning them into an almost orange color. My breath gets knocked out of me first now realizing how much I have truly missed her. Knowing another man has touched her in any way makes me want to rip his head of. It takes everything in me to turn around, and walk away from her for the second time.

However I will get her back, and she will remember me.