How to Princess - Series

Chapter 18

"Shh!" Jasper hissed as he jumped off my bed. "I'm not allowed to be in here!"

"You're.. you're not.. you're not allowed to be in here" I said clutching my chest as I tried to calm down.

"Thats what I just said" he said as he walked over to me.

I opened the door a bit behind me. "You should probably go. It's getting late. I'll talk to you tomorrow but" I said nervously as he stalked closer. He pushed the door closed and I stepped back.

My back was pressed against the door and he brought another arm up. Caging me in. I looked up at him. He was an inch or two taller than Jake which made him tower over me even in my heels. Fear coursed through my veins and I let her come forward so I could talk to her.

"What is going on?" She asked in a mocking voice. "I have a feeling this may be my fault" she laughed. "Oh well. You're on your own" She laughed before disappearing to the back of my mind again. I started to panic. She was the one who got us out of things! I shook my head. I can do this without her.

"Jasper. Please give me some space to breathe" I asked. My voice shook slightly but he didnt seem to notice.

"I have a confession Willow" he whispered smiling. "You asked me why I hated you so much earlier. Now I have an answer" His lips brushed my ear and my shook nervously.

"Why don't you tell me tomorrow. I really want to go to bed" I said as I tried to push him away. He grabbed my wrists with one hand and leaned in. I pushed back but hit the wall. I turned my head but he took my chin with his other hand and held my face to his.

Now only inches away, I could feel his breath on my face. He touched my lip with his thumb and smiled. "I'm afraid I cant wait 'til tomorrow" he smiled and kissed me.

I didn't kiss him back and my entire body tensed up. He wasn't gentle or loving like Jake but he was angry and harsh. It was as if he was doing it to prove a point. I struggled but he pushed himself against me so I was pinned to the wall. His hand was still holding my face in a tight grip and I fought eith everything I had to get away. He was much stronger than me though so I gave up.

I relaxed and he smiled. Finally pulling away he smiled at me. "You see. My brother can't have you because he doesn't deserve you" he tilted my chin up and I resisted the urge to cry.

"What about Lexi?" I asked. My voice was quiet and shaky.

He laughed. "She doesnt have to know"

"Thats it! I can't watch this anymore!" She shouted. I let out a sigh of relief and giggled. I wouldn't release her but I would give her a little bit of power. I hid my arm behind my back as shadows coiled around it. She was laughing in my head, planting seeds of ideas as I brought them to life.

"Good. Because anything that happens in this room tonight doesnt get told anywhere. Got it?" I said raising an eyebrow and placing my other hand on his chest. He smiled and nodded.

It was then that I smiled a genuine smile. "Fantastic" I said as I swung my fist around and hit his smug face. He fell back and I let shadows flow out and wrap around his wrists. They squeezed and he winced as they continued up his arms. They wrapped around his entire body leaving only his head free.

His expression was frightened and I laughed. Something silver caught my eye and I looked as I saw a cutlass lying on my dressing table.

A present for my baby girl

It said on a tag and I smiled as I picked it up and twirled it in my grip. I pulled the shadows back and held the point to his neck. "Jasper..." I said to him in a sing-song voice.

"Yes?" He said. His voice shook slightly and his eyes never left the blade.

"Do you think I could kill you right now?" I asked innocently.

"No" Jasper said with a smile.

"And why not?" I said still smiling.

"You can't kill me. You love me too much" his grin widened until I pressed the blade harder into his neck. Applying enough pressure to scare him without hurting him.

"Digging yourself a deeper hole" I laughed.

The door opened and I heard a chuckle "Hi Love. Whats going on?" My father asked.

"Nothing Daddy I'm just dealing with something" I said to him as I looked over my shoulder and smiled.

"Oh. Ok. I'll see you in the morning" he said as the door closed and I turned back to Jasper. "Where were we? Oh yes! Why don't you think I could kill you?"

"You wouldnt because you know that Jake would never forgive you and would give up on you like everyone else has but you cant let that happen can you? Because then you'll have no one and you'll succumb to the darkest part of your soul. She'll be free and you'll have no reason to stop her. You're afraid because Jake is the only one holding you together" he finished and I lowered the cutlass.

"Get out" I hissed quietly. "Out!" I yelled and he ran out of the door.

"Would it really be that bad if I got out for good?" She asked.

"Yes" I hissed "Now away back you go" I said and pushed her back again where she couldnt be heard. I put the cutlass back on the dressing table and sat on the end of the bed. I kicked off my shoes and lay back.

I lay for a few moments before pulling myself up and walking over to my bathroom. My hair was a mess and my lips were swollen. I had red marks on my chin where Jasper had grabbed me and my lipstick was smudged. I washed my face and brushed my hair back and put it in a messy bun before slipping off the dress and putting my pyjamas on. I went over to my large bed and threw myself down on it. Jasper was right. I can't lose Jake.

I buried my head in the pillow and pulled the blankets around my head. I couldn't lose Jake. I just couldn't.

I let sleep engulf me and I sighed as I drifted off.