Ghost ☾ j.b. & you

Chapter Thirty One: Surprise

-Your P.O.V.-

I've been missing Justin more than ever. It's been almost two months since we've last spoke and each night I'm laying beside Austin makes me miss Justin even more. I haven't called him since we've last spoke because he warned me on how dangerous it is for us to be sneaking around like we are. I didn't want us to be in more trouble than we already were in.

Everyday I have to help Austin and "our gang" plan evil ways to hurt Justin's gang. This made me feel queasy inside. I loved Justin so much and here I am, planning ways to kill him. This isn't right nor fair.

Lately all the stress has been getting to me. I have been throwing up every morning and sometimes in the afternoon. Austin has been taking notice and brought up possibilities I refused to accept. I didn't see difference in my weight nor did I check the scale to see a difference. I've always did have anxiety so it could just be my nerves. There's no way I could be harvesting a future child inside of me. Just the thought of it made me want to puke even more.

I've been in the bathroom all morning, hurling into the toilet as usual. Austin has been by my side the whole time, comforting me.

"Babe, I'm making you a doctors appointment. You have been doing this for too long."

"I'm fine, Austin! I'm just nervous."

Austin gave me a look that said I don't buy it.

"Well, it doesn't hurt to be sure. It will rule some possibilities."  

I sighed. As much as I hated going to the doctors, it will calm me down some. They can prescribe me medication for whatever disease I'm currently fighting. It will also make Austin quit bugging me with all the different theories he has came up with inside his mind. Cancer and pregnancy are his two main ones.

"Have you ate anything yet?" He questioned.

"No," I puked again into the toilet, "I'll just puke it up."

Austin sighed, rubbing his hand up and down my back in comfort.

"Okay, baby. You have a doctors appointment in an hour."

I nodded.

I brushed my teeth once I was finished vomiting. I take a shower, get dressed, do my hair along with my makeup. I really didn't want to go anywhere. I was tired and depressed about everything going on. All I wanted to do was sleep and dream my sick twisted life away. 

"Y/N, its time to go." Austin called from downstairs.

I sighed, looking myself in the mirror one last time. I didn't look like myself anymore. This gang life has taken a huge toll on me. I'm not the same woman I used to be.

I walked downstairs. Austin awaited for my arrival at the bottom of the steps. He smiled once he was in my presence.

"Hello, beautiful." He greeted, kissing my forehead.

I gave him a small smile.

We walked to the car and hopped inside. Austin drove to the nearest doctor's office which was about twenty minutes away. My stomach swarmed. I felt so nervous. I just have a feeling I'm going to hear something that I really didn't want to hear. I know I can't avoid this for forever, but I wanted to avoid it for as long as possible. 

Austin parked the vehicle in the closest parking spot by the doctor's office. I stepped out of the car and made my way towards the entrance with Austin following closely behind. We filled out all of the necessary information the doctors needed. Well, what Austin had made up for me. Since we're popular criminals, we have to tweak some of our personal information. I don't even look the same anymore due to this sickness I'm fighting.  

After waiting anxiously, they finally called me back. Austin went with me even though I really didn't want him to. I just wanted to be alone. I'm sick of always being in his presence and feeling too much stress. Just being around him made me anxious.

"Hello, Mr and Mrs Parker." The doctor greeted, shaking our hands.

"Hello." Me and Austin greeted back.

"So, from the looks of your chart, you've been showing common signs of pregnancy. We're going to take a few test to rule out any other possibilities of sickness and to see if you're actually pregnant, okay?" 

"Okay, doctor. Thank you." I sighed.

The doctor walked out to send a nurse back inside. My heart was racing. Pregnant? I can't be. I don't want to have a baby. Not now at least. I also didn't want a kid to suffer the downfalls of this lifestyle. Plus, I didn't want it to be Austin's child. I wasn't in love with him. I love Justin.

A nurse came in with supplies to take blood samples. Austin held my hand since he knew I wasn't a huge fan of needles and blood. 

"Everything's going to be okay, baby." Austin reassured me as the nurse stuck the needle into a vein in my arm.

I didn't even realize I was holding my breath until I finally exhaled. I wanted to puke at the thought of being pregnant. Part of me wanted it to be worse than pregnancy. A sickness that might potentially kill me, but my life is already shortened anyways. My life is always in danger due to what I'm known for. I will never be safe nor will my future child.  

The nurse left to run the test in the lab. I could tell Austin was nervous by the way he was pacing back and forth around the small room. I honestly didn't blame him. Austin thinks he's about to be in his prime. His career is just starting to get big as we've been training for this battle against Justin. A child would just ruin it all. 

The doctor came back with a few papers in his hands. My hands felt clammy as my nerves were even higher than before.  

Austin sat down in a chair next to the patient table. I just kept silent and prayed for something that was most likely not going to happen. 

"Mr and Mrs. Parker, congratulations, you're having a baby." 

My heart sank at the news. The room was starting to close in me, suffocating any remaining breath I had left inside of my body. I couldn't comprehend what the doctor was saying. This can't be real. I must be dreaming. I need to wake up. 

"W-What?" I stuttered, on the verge of sobbing. 

"You're pregnant, Mrs. Parker. I'm assuming you two weren't expecting."

"Not at all." Austin spoke, the words almost too big to fit out of his mouth.

"I'll give you two time to discuss this. Take all the time you need." 

I stared blankly at the wall in shock. I'm trying to collect my thoughts, but they're so scattered that I can't even comprehend one single thought. I wanted to punch the wall and cry my heart out. This is the last thing I needed in my life. What would I tell Justin? How would he take it when he sees me? He'll notice my stomach being larger. Plus, Justin isn't stupid. I was never good at lying to him. Especially since he can read me like a book. 

Austin sat next to me on the patient table. He let out a heavy sigh as he placed his hand on my leg. I gazed at him then back at the dark beige wall. 

"I'm sorry, baby." Austin whispered.

He knew how much I didn't want a kid right now. Even more than he did.

"I-I'm p-pregnant." I stammered, tears streaming from my eyes.

Austin pulled me into a tight hug.

"We'll make it through this, y/n. I'll be right here with you."

I didn't respond. I just sobbed into his muscular chest, allowing Austin to comfort me. How could I be pregnant? We've had sex once since I've returned. I became pregnant off of that one time? This can't be right. The doctor must be lying. I refuse to accept his words. 

I can't be pregnant.