The dark abyss that is my mind: part one

What do you know?

All my life I've had people tell me
"You're 16, what do you know?
You don't pay taxes
You don't pay bills or a mortgage
You don't worry about having a job
You don't have any mouths to feed"
You're right, I'm only 16
But at the age of 13
I was contemplating suicide
Af the age of 13
I was relentlessly told
How ugly, fat and untalented I was
That I would never amount to anything
At 15 I held a bottle of pills in my hand
Multiple times a week
Af 15 my parents fought so loudly
The whole house would shake
At 15 I started telling myself
How fat and worthless I was
At 15 i stopped eating for 2 months
By the age of 16 my thighs
We're covered in battle scars
At 16 I learned what it was like
To pray every night that I wouldn't
Wake up to see the sun
At 16 I swallowed a bottle of pills
But had my stomach pumped
In the middle of third period
At 16 I woke up in a hospital
Screaming and crying
Because I wasn't dead
At 16 I got told my depression
And anxiety were just
Cries for attention
At 16 I learned what it was like
To feel the rejection from the people
Who are supposed to love you unconditionally
I learned what it was like to feel the love
My parents once had for me
Drain out of their eyes
So maybe I'm 16
But I feel like I'm a thousand years old
I have fought battles you can't
Even begin to imagine
I have endured relentless torment
And taunts and when I asked
For help I got told I deserved it
I may be 16 but I have endured
More than you in your
36 years of life
So I may not pay taxes
But at 16 I had anxiety attacks
Over the pile of homework
I had to turn in next day
I may not have to worry
About feeding my kids
But even after 2 years of therapy
I will get depressed
If I feel like I ate too much
So you tell me
"You're 16, what do you know?"
And my answer will always be
"Far too much"