Audrey's Secret

To Leave Everything

*CAUTION: Super sad....*

Sunday

I told Hermione of what I plan to do. She was a bit taken back saying she didn't mean that I had to do that. I assured her I had to do this so neither one of them would get hurt.

"Are thinking of how you'll feel once your gone? Audrey, both boys are your best friends. That will hurt all of us who care about you." Hermione whispered to me over the table. We had secluded our selves from all the other students at the end of the table. Harry and Ron understood. "I've already asked to be transferred back to my old school. Dumbledore said it was alright, but I had to stay until the semester ends which is a week. I didn't want to do this, Hermione. I...I can't hurt anyone anymore."

I replied, Hermione gave me a sad look and shook her head.

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"Isn't there another way?"

"Not really. I wish there were." I told Harry. He seemed at a loss of words, vulnerable. "Well...I-I hope you like it there..." Harry said walking away.

If only he knew.

At Herbology, Harry avoided me at all measures. He had even worked with a Slytherin over me. I'm surprised he didn't work with Draco for that matter. Ugh, I have to tell Draco about me leaving Saturday after this class. I feel sick to my stomach.

"Draco." I called after class was leaving. He stopped and turned around and instantly smiled. What have I done? He's never going to be the same after I tell him. "What's up?"

"I-I have to tell you something." I looked at my shoes to keep myself from tearing up in front of everyone. "Ok, let's go somewhere private then he said noticing my awkwardness. He led me to a classroom that was empty and sat on a desk as I stood in front of him. "I...have to leave." I said after a quiet five minutes. "Leave where?"

"Leave Hogwarts." I played with my fingers. I could feel his gaze on me, piercing a hole through my skull. "Why?" He said incredulously. I thought about the excuse I told Harry. That my mom had gotten another job in America, with a new school included. I explained this to Draco.

"Wow. Well, we can always write to each other." He weakly smiled, the one time I actually look up at him. I couldn't see anymore.

I was engulfed by his hug and warmth and hugged him back. I let the tears fall. No Audrey! Your supposed to let him go! That was the whole point of the moving thing! My sub conscience shouted at the back of my head. I pulled away. "I can't do this anymore, Draco." I look into his pained, grey eyes.

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I sulked down the hallway to the common room, the earlier scene kept my mind busy with things I could've said, done, and the feelings I should have told him. I mumble the password and ignore the complaint that I should be practicing for the chess tournament tomorrow. She's a fan apparently. I walk up the stairs and take out my wand. I take out the charms book that Professor Quirell let me borrow. I skim through the pages and find the right one. "Audrey? What are you doing?" I hear a click from the door and hide the book quickly. She see's my red eyes. "You told them didn't you?"

"Did my red eyes give it away?"

She chuckled and sat down beside me. "There was another way-"

"I didn't want to do that to them. I didn't want to do it to you or Ron either." I said simply. She nodded.

"The week will go by faster now that you're going to leave." Hermione sighed. We heard giggles downstairs. "Ugh, it's free time. Want to go somewhere? I can get your mind off of that thing?"

I nodded quickly and followed her out of the dormitory.

"Hey what's wrong?" Ron asked as Harry slipped by me before I could say 'hello'. "I have to leave Hogwarts in a weeks time." I replied.

"It isn't going to be the same without you, Audrey. And now I know why Harry wont speak to anyone." I nodded slowly and Hermione grabbed my hand and led me away from the conversation I wanted to avoid in the first place.

We went up stair cases, of all sizes, we reached a door and Hermione whispered a password and opened the door. We reached the top of the stair to another door and she opened it to a sun room. I walked over to the window in front of me which gave me a full and beautiful sight of the island and of the shore where I had first seen Hogwarts.

"I'm going to miss this place."