The Bully's Plan

Why Can't Someone Else Deal with This

Gerard P.O.V

I hoped that I wouldn't wake up but with just my luck I did. I just want to close my eyes and never wake up. To dream of a perfect world forever with no worries but life has different plans.

I do my usual routine and for once I left the house early. I open the door and felt the crisp cool wind of such a bleak day.

I put my headphones in and click shuffle on Spotify. Then I turned my volume to the highest level and put my hoodie up.

It wasn't like I had any friends unless you count blades and music friends but other than that I didn't need the world to tell me I'm pathetic. I already know that.

I felt my backpack start to dip down a little so I pulled it over my shoulder more and continue my walk to hell.

I couldn't forgot yesterday's talk with Frank. Frank was just so sweet and nice. He was so adorable. He wasn't the guy to beat up people. Maybe that's why I like him.

Maybe they will forget to beat you up today.

I looked around and my voices were right. I didn't see any jocks. Just when I turned my head back to the direction of hell I was met with Bob.

Ha ha, I tricked you.

"Shut up." I mumbled to myself.

"What the fuck did you just say to me faggot?" Bob yelled.

I kept my head down.

Dont talk it'll make it worst, just let them give you a beating and go.

For once my head said something reasonable. I followed what my mind said and kept my mouth shut.

"I bet you thought that you could escape us. Didn't you?" Bob said.

"You already know that answer, Bob. I mean why else would Gerard be looking around?" I heard Mikey say.

Keep your head down.

"What if he was checking out guys? We all know how gay he is." Ray protest.

"Ray's got a point." Bob said.

Where's Frank? I quickly looked up and saw Frank straight ahead of me. I looked down again seeing my black boots instead.

"We're gonna be late hurry up and punch him already." I finally heard Frank say.

"Frank I swear you have a pain kink or something." Ray says laughing.

Keep your eyes on the floor with your mouth shut.

"Seems about right." Bob says.

I see Bob's shoes close to me and I start to panic. Why are you freaking out you go through this everyday. "I don't know."

"What faggot?" Bob pushes me. I stumbled back trying my best not to cry on the spot.

"Hurry up times ticking." Frank says taping on his wrist.

"Fine. JUST SHUT UP!!" Bob says.

I was thrown to the ground by Bob, I try to stand up but his foot pushed me down on my chest. Please, not again. I felt the first kick and I new there's no way out of this now.

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I heard laughing and hand fives but I can't open my eyes. I really don't know how much time as passed but it seems like forever.

I heard foot steps slowly fading away. You can open your eyes now, faggot. I slowly open my eyes and I didn't expect Frank to be standing there with his hand out.

Don't trust him. "Wasn't planning on it."

"What?" Frank says.

"Shit..." I whisper.

"Why don't you just talk? Why can't you talk to anyone anymore?" Frank says.

I shake my head. I can't talk. Don't talk. Just shake your head.

"Fine since you won't answer me then can you please just trust me and let me help you up." Frank says.

Don't trust him. I gave him a small nod and slowly pulled out me hand and grabbed his.

Butterflies erupted in my stomach. A blush crawl it's way to my cheeks.

His pulled me up and let my hand go. I started to dust off my pants when I looked up and saw him staring. We made eye contact and I looked away.

I stood straight up and he was still there. Why is he still here.

"Umm do you want to walk to school together?" He was scratching his head.

WHAT. THE. ACTUALLY. FUCK!!

I shrugged and started to put my ear buds back in but Frank stopped me. I gave him a questioning look.

"Please?" Frank pleading.

I swear I could die right the spot. He looked so adorable. Gerard no homo. "Yea no homo."

"What? No homo? Who are you talking to?" Frank said.

Shit.

I shrug and kept walking. At first he didn't notice that I started to walk but when he did he runs up to me.

"Can you please talk to me? Please?" Frank says. I was about to say yes but I stopped.

He hurt you.

Not physically.

It stills counts.

But..

NOO.

FINE.

I shook my head. That's when Frank stood in the pathway stopping me in my tracks.

"TALK!! GOD!! DAMN!! IT!! WHAT DID I DO? ALL I TRY TO DO IS HELP YOU BUT YOU DON'T EXCEPT IT!!" Frank screamed and I flinched back. He seemed to notice and try to apologize.

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to hurt you." He tried to reach for me but I pushed him back and run passed him.

Aww look at poor Gerard. He gets hurt so easily.

The voices didn't stop and I felt like they were all true. I knew I shouldn't think that but I did and I don't know to make them stop.

Before I knew it is was at the school gates. I run passed the jocks and they started laughing.

I felt tears start to acted up. I pushed open the school doors and ran to the abandoned bathrooms. I pushed to door open and got in.

I locked the door and slid down the door slowly. Why does it have to be me? Why can't someone else deal with this?

I grabbed my backpack and unzipped it. I was searching for one of my blades but I couldn't find one. Instead I found lots of medicine pills I was supposed to take.

I took out the pill bottles and set them down on the floor. I open every one and poured the pills in my hands. Different colors of pills made it seem so happy. Before I second guess myself I shoved the pills in my mouth. I shallow most of them before I felt a pain shot in my stomach.

I heard someone knock on the door. "Gerard can you unlock the door?" I heard Frank say.

I got up and dizziness washed over me. I finally got the unlock and that's when everything went black.

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