Unbroken- One Direction

Chapter 34- Don't Go Breaking my Heart... Too Late

Chapter 34

Don’t Go Breaking my Heart… Too Late

*Hannah’s POV*

I wanted to cry. I was so ready to kiss him. But of course he has a girlfriend, of course he wasn’t going to cheat on her, and of course I was foolish to think we would kiss.

I wanted to get out of this damn closet.

Finally Kat opened the door. I jumped up and left without a word. I made it to my room and was face first in my bed when the tears started to fall. In one week I will be around him all the time. His girlfriend will be there, kissing him, hugging him, right there in my fucking face.

Half of me wanted to quit The Girlfriends, but I couldn’t let Liam get to me.

I heard a knock at my door. It was Katty.

“Han? Can I come in? It’s just me. Liam and the boys decided to go home, although they are coming over tomorrow afternoon. I don’t know what happened, but I love you and you can tell me anything.” Kat said sweetly. I knew Kat had a tough time. She has had a rough past. But she is one of the nicest people I know, if there could be one word to describe her, it would be self-less. She would step out of her way to make someone else feel better.

I stood up and walked over to my door, unlocking it, and letting her in. As soon as she saw that I had been crying she rushed over to me and gave me a hug.

“Oh sweetie. I don’t know what Liam did, but he is an idiot.”

I chuckled. It wasn’t his fault. It’s not his fault he has a girlfriend.

“He has a girlfriend. They just started going out. He told me he wanted to kiss me but that he couldn’t do that to me or his girlfriend. Oh Katty, I know I’m being stupid, but I think I love him.”

That was when I first admitted it, to myself or anyone else. But after years of stalking his twitter, then a night of being with him, I really did.

“Oh sweetie.” Kat said, sympathetically.

“Don’t think I’m gonna quit or anything,” I said, reassuring her, “There is nothing on this earth to keep me from performing. I’m just not looking forward to be with him all the time.”

Katty nodded her head. “Liam really likes you Han. I can see it. I think he will break up with that girl and then it’s you and him until the end. It will all work out.”

I smiled. “I’m off to sleep. Thanks, and sorry for just running out of there.”

“I understand.” Katty left the room.

I laid down and looked out my window. Back in Ohio, I was used to crying myself to sleep. Basically, musically talented people were considered freaks. There was this one cheerleader who always stole my music sheets and she pushed my books. I had no friends because no one wanted to go through what I had to. It’s not that I minded, I liked being alone.

Suddenly I felt sick. I hated thinking about being bullied. I ran to my bathroom and started to vomit. My bathroom door burst open and there stood Sierra.

“What are you doing?” She almost screamed. I was taken aback.

“I have an upset stomach.” I said, not understanding we she was so mad.

“Oh. Sorry. I, um, I was afraid you were trying to, well, be skinny or something.” She seemed upset by saying this.

“Sierra. I’m not bulimic. I don’t throw up my food. Why would you say that?”

“I do it.” I almost didn’t hear the words she muttered. I got up and closed the bathroom door.

“Talk.” I said, sitting her and myself on the floor.

“At my school, before I graduated, I was a cheerleader. I was one of the most popular girls in school and I had a lot of friends and I wanted to be perfect.  But one day this boy said I was fat. I didn’t want to lose my reputation, so I started to throw up my food. And now I can’t stop Han! I have a perfect boyfriend who treats me amazing. He calls my beautiful and tonight he told me he loved me! And when I came inside to the bathroom because I thought, hey, Zayn likes me just like this I can’t change at all! But I want to stop but I can’t and I don’t know what to do about it. I’m sorry but then I heard you in here and I couldn’t stand having anyone else go through what I do.”

I was shocked. Out of the 5 of us, Sierra definitely had the best body, so to speak. She was in shape, and she was flawless.

Suddenly it hit me. Growing up, I had never known what it had been like to be a ‘popular’ girl. I thought I was the only one who had struggles. That cheerleader who bullied me probably did what she did to me because she was insecure herself.

I looked to Sierra crying. “Sierra, you know that I’m here for you. I don’t agree what you are doing to yourself, but I can relate. You don’t need to worry about Zayn hating you because you are too fat. First, I see the way he looks at you. I could only hope that someday I will have a boy look at me the same way.  Anyway, I think that you should go running with Kat every day. That way, you won’t feel fat, which you’re not by the way, but please stop doing this to yourself. You don’t need to worry about anyone judging you.”

I hoped she believed me. She looked over and smiled and I knew that she had taken it to heart.

She and I sat there for a while, in a comfortable silence.

“So what happened with Liam?” She asked.

“He has a girlfriend.” I said simply, not really wanting to stay on the subject.

“Really? He never told us girls. I wonder if the guys know…”