"I remember seeing you there. your jersey on the bench next to you and your hair was a mess from the helmet and damn it Sidney I knew right then and there I loved you. I have loved you. maybe I always will!"
"Then why are you walking away, Maggie, w...
"toooom" i called from the bathroom. he came rushing in with a neck tie draped around his neck. "zip me?"
his hands grazed my back and i broke into chill bumps. "you okay?" he asked.
"yeah yeah i'm fine. just started thinking about something."
*flashback*
we both walked into the house filled with fury. i slipped out of my heels and paced the living room while he tried to explain something he couldn't.
"sorry for what? kissing her? hooking up with her? what is it sidney?"
"doing this to you!" he screamed. he dropped his coat and ripped the tie from his neck, "I'm sorry for making you fall in love with someone who quite frankly isn't good enough for you."
"love? you think i'm in love with you? you've got another thing coming crosby if you think for one second that i am in love with you! i hate you. damn do i hate you. i hate how you bite your lip. how you smirk when you say my name. i hate the way you talk to me. if anything Sidney you piss me off!"
"i piss you off? ever thought about me? you are the most condescending woman i have ever laid eyes on. you are selfish and you are sarcastic and god don't get me started on how snarky you are. the world has been handed to you on a silver plater and you think you are entitled to it all and i hate that maggie. i hate it so much but you can bet your ass i still want to marry you one day. you bother me. but please keep bothering me baby because i don't know what'd i do without hearing how awful i am at least twenty times a day."
i looked at him, into his big brown eyes and felt every emotion he did. i inched towards him slowly and gripped onto the hem of his blue button button down.
"come home to me baby." he pleaded.
*present day*
we walked into the ballroom hand in hand. tom always loved charity events so it didn't take long for him and a few other guys to go off and talk to some of the guests.
"how are you feeling?" lauren came up behind me and put a glass of wine in my hand.
"exhausted. where's TJ?" i asked.
she pointed over to him and a few of the guys messing around on the dance floor. i giggled before taking a gulp of my drink.
"i think you're more than exhausted," she laughed
"what if i went home for a few days. i have a few days built up for vacation and i could be back here in an hour need be."
"i've been telling you for weeks you need to go home and see your family."
"i know it's just..."
"you don't want to see him. i get it. does tom know you slept with him when they played there a few weeks back?"
"he doesn't even know i saw him. i kept it a secret from everyone but you and Tess. i wanted so bad to forget it but i don't know. all i've done is think about it."
"go home maggs. think about it for a few days. get your head clear then come back and be with the boy you gave up a career for," she urged
her words echoed in my mind. i did give up my career for him. i couldn't hold the position i did and be with him at the same time so i quit and started working with a practice in Bethesda. ever since i've questioned my decision in not only myself but in him.
"hey come dance with me!" tom smiled and grabbed my wrist to drag me out with him and a few of the guys.
i bounced out there and moved to the music with my arms draped around his neck. we were having a great time. that's why i liked him so much. we always had a great time together.
"maggie! maggie!" lauren came running over to me. my phone was in one and her car keys in another.
"what? what's wrong?" i asked her. something in her eyes told me my world was about to come crashing down.
"it's sidney. he's being rushed to the hospital!"
and i was right. my stomach dropped and tears started welling up in my eyes. i snatched the keys from her shaking hand and bolted out the doors of the ballroom.
lauren chased after me and tom followed not long after. i climbed into the front seat of her car and slammed the door shut catching my dress in the door.
"what's going on?" tom asked through a fit of anger and confusion.
lauren glanced at me then leaned in close and whispered something into his ear. i grabbed the end of my dress and pulled it inside with me before slamming the door and starting the engine. lauren climbed into the passenger seat and we started towards my house.
"what the hell happened?" i growled.
"Mags breathe."
"What happened Lauren!" i screamed.
"he got hit. knocked out cold. your sister called me. i got you a plane ticket leaving at 9."
i pulled into the driveway and rushed in to change and pack. my ballgown dropped to the floor and i quickly put on jeans and red caps hoodie while lauren put clothes in a bag for me.
i snatched the keys of my range rover off the counter and rushed back out. we hugged goodbye and i headed for the airport.
around midnight i wandered the halls of UPMC Mercy looking for sids room. then behind the door to room 203 laid a lifeless version of the lively boy i loved. my stomach dropped and i stared at what was in front of me.
"maggie you made it," geno spoke up from behind me.
i spun around and threw myself into his embrace. he held me close and made small circles on my back with his hands.
"you're supposed to protect him. you promised me!"
"i know maggs. i'm sorry. i kicked ass after though. promise."
i walked over to the bed and grabbed his hand in mine and placed my lips to his wrist. "please wake up baby. please come bother me."
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@mtucky: get well soon kid 🐧 i need someone to tie my skates while i'm in town
