Fighting for you: Always

Life without you

My story starts when Katniss has returned from the Capitol for a few weeks, Peeta's not there just yet...

I ship Everlark, just giving you a hint...

THIS FIRST CHUNK ISN'T STRUCTURED VERY WELL BUT IT GETS BETTER, okay?

Cover done by @asdfghjklaurenn

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Katniss POV

Me and Prim were surrounded by all these mutts and they started closing in on us, moving closer and closer. Suddenly one of them lurched forwards, ripping my innocent little sisters head clean off-

'NO!PRIM!'

I wake up screaming myself hoarse about my little sister, tears are streaming down my face, sticking to my cheeks in the muggy air. I hear a creak outside my door and almost fall out the bed with shock but its just Buttercup, he must have heard me scream her name.

See this person I've become, terrified at the littlest of noises, no one around to comfort me? I tremble into the bathroom and sit on the closed toilet seat lid with my hands clasped around the sink. I raise my head to look at my reflection and jeez, it's a sight. My hair is in a matted clump on top of my head, my grey eyes red and puffy. My skin is as white as a sheet and still stained from the crying that doesn't seem to stop.

I can't cope with this anymore, I wake up every night the same way: screaming for Prim, Finnick, Annie, Johanna, Gale, Peeta.... Oh Peeta. The boy with the bread that I've hurt so much. Emotionally in the Games, physically in the torture Snow put him through just to test me and mentally when he was hijacked into thinking I'm an evil mutt, which I probably am to be honest.

But he was the only one who could ever comfort me, calm me after my nightmares and right now I have no clue where the hell he is. I hope he's in one of the districts, starting a better life for himself like Gale is; I never deserved him, he should love someone who does deserves him and all his sweetness. Or have loved I should say, he doesn't love me anymore, the boy with the bread is gone forever.

I sit in the bathroom until the sun come up, streaming through the window. I hear someone in the kitchen and freak out for a little bit until I realise it will just be Greasy Sae with her granddaughter, making me breakfast; I swear everyone thinks I'm unable to do anything. Well maybe that's because I AM unable to do anything but whatever, a little faith in me would be nice.

I stumble downstairs and slump in a stool at the breakfast bar. I yawn hello to Greasy Sae and watch her granddaughter play with Buttercup until a bacon sandwich is placed in front of me. For the first time in days I'm actually hungry so I gobble it down in two bites and then lean back on my stool, chewing my breakfast.

What should I do with my life, other than moping around here all day until the nightmares start tonight? It turns out I said that last bit out loud because Greasy Sae answered me.

'How about you go hunting? Like you did the other week?'

But I couldn't, it just reminded me of my old life and how I have no one left anymore.

No one that cares.

Peeta POV

I sit on my bed in my Capitol chambers, all alone of course. I lean back on my pillow and stretch my arms behind my head, there are still scars littered all over them, there probably always will be. The good thing is, that I'm finally gaining my memory back, there are just brief periods where I slip back into mutt mode but my doctor says I may be like that forever. There's only one problem with gaining my memory back, it means my feelings have returned, all of them.