Hopelessly in Love

Chapter 13: Lisa

Joeys POV

Lisa came over and i told her everything sparing no detial

Lisa: Joey...I'm so sorry

She pulls me into a hug

Then she got up and began to walk away

Joey: W-Where are you going?

Lisa: to talk some sense into Shane

She left and I got a text from Sawyer

Sawyer: Hey buddy! Were all going out to see a movie tonight! Wann join?

I was conflicted. If I go..who knows what Ricky will do to me.

Just the thought if Ricky made me petrified and tremble

But then I thought of Shane and my body filled with happiness, it's amazing that just thinking about him made me feel so..

So amazing and care-free like no one else in this closed, cold-hearted, dishonest, god awful world mattered but that one other person

The only problem with this damned feeling is Shane doesn't feel the same

I had my chance and I lost it

I finally decided I would take my chances and replied to Sawyer

"Yeah! When, Where and who's going?"

Sawyer replied fairly quickly

"Ricky, Me, Connor, Luke, Lisa, Meghan and Shane"

Shane

Even his name was enough to make my heart flutter.

I composed a text to shane, not intending to send it but i had to write it.

I'll do anything I can to be with you forever, I'll fight the whole world just to be with you, and I'll be what you want me to be, 'cos you have taught me how to live...you are my life and my reason to live! I love you ...

I know you don't judge me like other do. I wish I could be everything that you deserve ...and I hope you know I'm trying!

It's crazy to feel this way, I know but Shane I love you will all that I am, all that I ever will be and not talking to you is slowly but surely killing me. So if I ignore you tonight just know its out of pure undying love.

The love that I have for you.

I can't believe I blew my chance with you. I will regret it for the rest of my life.

I will regret never being able to share a life together. You may think I'm crazy but I've fantasized about you proposing to me and us having kids and the fact that this will never happen

Is not just killing me...but murdering me

And it's painful as hell

I can't believe i just wrote that. I sound so obsessed

That's because you are

The voice is back i see...

it's nothing serious just a negative part of me that won't shut the fuck up

My bedroom door swung open startling me and worst of all making my finger do something

my thumb hit send

Shanes POV

My phone rang and it was sawyer

Shane: Hey soy Sauce

Sawyer: Joeys coming, along with Meghan and Luke!

Shane: Awesome! look im pretty bored can i come over early?

Sawyer: How early?

Shane: now?

Sawyer: Yeah why not!

i quickly hung up but not before getting a message

It was from Joey!

finally he decided to talk to me

the text was suprising...

Joey:I'll do anything I can to be with you forever, I'll fight the whole world just to be with you, and I'll be what you want me to be, 'cos you have taught me how to live...you are my life and my reason to live! I love you ...

wow, um I already feel pretty awkward and theres a ton more to read

I know you don't judge me like other do. I wish I could be everything that you deserve ...and I hope you know I'm trying!

It's crazy to feel this way, I know but Shane I love you will all that I am, all that I ever will be and not talking to you is slowly but surely killing me. So if I ignore you tonight just know its out of pure undying love. 

this is abit creepy.....but i mean. it HAS been like 10 years?

The love that I have for you. 

I can't believe I blew my chance with you. I will regret it for the rest of my life. 

I will regret never being able to share a life together. You may think I'm crazy but I've fantasized about you proposing to me and us having kids and the fact that this will never happen 

Is not just killing me...but murdering me

I was stunned and after i snapped out of it, i ran to sawyers house, he kne whow to handle this

i got there adn he noticed my distrseed look and pulled me into a hug

Sawyer: you okay?

Shane: Not really

Sawyer: come in and tell therapist Sawyer Hartmna whats on your mind

I chuckled and soon went back to my deluded face, still in disbleif of what i ahd read nearly 10 minutes ago

Shane: i got  atext from joey....

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So i have 3 questions for you guys

1. how do you think of this book? do i write well enough for it? should i add more detail? Longer chapters?

2. I wanna start a book of shoey one shots sent in by you guys becuase my friend wrote this AMAZING, yet very dsiturbing, smut scene and i'm reluctent to post if thats the only thing i have in that book. but would you guys sent me shrots? does that not interest you? let me know how you feel

3. Lastly what books do you want me to update more often

/ our story (shoey)

hopeleslly in love(shoey)

at first glance(shyler)

blogger(shoey)

School boy crush(shoey)/

which one should i update the most?

anyway as always i love you byexx