I woke up early. And I can't believe that I'm smiling. Though I'm already awake and I can't close my eyes 'cause I'm afraid. I'm afraid that I will never see him if I will close my eyes.
Yes. I am afraid to loose him. He's giving me and hitting me hard time. I'm not sure. And i guess it's too early to say that this is. Freaking love. That is bullshit if I would say that.
"Hmmm" while I'm busy talking to myself inside of my head. I felt this comfortable feeling in Lux's arms. It feels like home. Really.
I look at him. Er. Scratch that. I'm staring at him. And I don't feel ashamed for now.
"Why are you staring at me?" He asked. But his eyes were close.
"How did you know? I mean. Oh! It means. You are already awake then?" I asked but he didn't answer so I just pouted my lips.
"No." He answered
"Liar"
"It's because I didn't sleep."
My ears can't explain what it hears.
"Why?" I asked.
"'Cause I'm hugging you Shyn"
I can't utter a word.
"What the fuck?" I cussed.
Pinalo niya yung kamay ko.
"Kailan ka pa natutong magmura?" He pouted.
"Psh. Wala naman." Sagot ko.
Hinigpitan niya yung yakap niya.
December 10 2016.
"You know what? I like you. No. Silly me. I love you" narinig kong sabi niya.
Pero. Bakit ganto?
Ung tibok ng puso ko ang saya pero parang may kulang.
"May I court you?" He asked.
I just nod at him while smiling. I dont know. Maybe because i like him too? Im making myself wonder for something. Did I fell Inlove before? To whom? I dont have any idea. And maybe one day i wont care.
"Is that a Yes?" He smiled.
"I guess? I want to say it directly. I like you but i dont know what love is." I said in a forsooth way.
"Then I'll teach you what love is. If you'll just let me."
"I dont know how... To.. React?" Why am I SAYING THESE SUCH .
UGH!
Damn this feeling.
This is not me.
I should. Hm.
Humiwalay ako sa yakap kosa kanya. The other side of my brain is not happy. It keeps on complaining actually.
"I-im sorry." Sabi ko nalang.
*******
"Shyn chan!" I wake up.
Silly.
Napanaginipan ko si Lux.
Whats happening?
"Are you okay now?" He asked.
"Yeah. Where is my doctor?" I asked.
"May chineck lang siya Ate. Umuwi na ako agad. Lumalala na daw kase" nakaramdam ako ng lungkot.
I thought this would be a great start. But I am not Able to see that start again. 'Cause I'm here at the end...
"You lose your contiousness Ms. Stry." Biglang sulpot ng isang lalaking nakalab coat.
"Dahil ba sa sakit ko?" I asked.
Sa konting panahon nakalimutan Kong may dinaramdam pala ako.
Napangiti Ako pero nakita ko and pagnginig ng kapatid Kong si Shaun.
" today is December 10" I stated.
"Bukas. . ." di ko na natuloy ang sasabihin ko.
Ang katapusan.
Is it really worth dying for?
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