Spoken WORDS

Patience

By: Rin254nyan

I'm drifting away,
Further and further each day.
If I even try to speak these words,
Will my voice eventually reach you?
I doubt it.

For where I am right now,
Just a few centimeters away from you,
You no longer can hear my voice.
You no longer can see me,
Or rather, you act like I wasn't there.

To you whom I have loved,
I still love you.
I guess even if you hurt me,
Even if you only give me pain,
Even if I know things,
I still smile, pretend,
Play Dumb.

Well, I guess you could say,
That I'm a sucker for love.
A sucker for YOUR love.

And no matter how hard,
No matter how painful,
No matter how lonely I get,
I still smile, laugh, pretend, play dumb,
And wait like an obedient dog.

So this feeling of helplessness,
I welcome it with a smile on my face.
Body growing numb.
Sight blurring, crossing lines.
Hearing slowly fading away.

I know I'm dying, but I'm still lying.

Lying that I'm fine,
Lying that it doesn't bother me,
Lying that I'll be alright,
Lying that I don't care.

Now, I ask.

Why are you so unfair?
I know you're probably here,
I know that you're just around the corner.
But even if you're so close,
You're so far out of my reach.

So maybe, I finally gave up.
Or maybe not.

Cause up till now,
These tears never stop.
These feelings still never die.
And this stupid stupid me,
Never listens to my brain anymore.
It only follows my heart,
The one you fixed, but now,
You've broken it apart.

But still, I'm waiting.
I'm still here.
For there's the voice of my heart,
It screams out your name!
It tells me that I have to remain..
But heart, I am tired.
Let me rest, let me finally be in peace.

So in these final moments,
Those memories of what we used to be,
They flash right in front of me.

I guess I'm dying..but hey..

I'm still here, waiting.

Published: 12/4/2016 5:35pm (PST)