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Four Quarters: Epilogue

Note: The Four Quarters series is inspired by BTS' album of the "Love Yourself" series.

"The Answer was to Love Myself"

From self deceit and self doubt,
I finally saw light to what it was truly about.
It was about accepting a single flaw,
It was about drawing the final straw.

I used to think that love should first be received,
But in the end I felt a little bit deceived.
See, I should have started looking for it on another aspect,
Not learn to love another person and myself, neglect.

I used to drown in a sea of my own pity,
Constantly felt like inside, I am empty.
Maybe that's the reason why I started to give up,
Sometimes even wanting for my life to come to a stop.

But I was given care, affection and love,
For some reason it made me feel free like a dove.
I was at peace, I was at ease and I went along with the breeze,
I was truly carefree, not knowing what would become of me.

See, I became to be so conscious and insecure,
It became a sickness to which no medicine could cure.
Even if the love of my life would constantly come to my rescue,
Soon his affection came to a halt and it seemed like our relationship wouldn't continue.

I was clumsy, I made mistakes repeatedly,
That's why I get the fact that he became tired of me.
But he promised me to stay and compromise,
But he didn't, much to my demise.

I felt miserable and desperate every single day,
I tried to find reasons to be happy and hopes to wait and stay.
But I started to love myself and finally know my worth,
He clearly didn't deserve me for he couldn't stay there at my worst.

Then light came into my life,
Finally it seemed like it was the end of my strife.
I came to appreciate the beauty of which was within,
I came to love myself through thick and thin.

Suddenly, the days came into full color,
Then someone also came knocking on my door.
If the past was the sun, the present was the moon,
Who had always been there but never did I notice so soon.

He smiles, he cries, he does compromise,
He's a friend I to came like and he actually tries.
He tries to keep a smile on my face,
He tries his best that in my life he has a place.

But this time I am smarter and wiser,
I'll let time take its course and be a bit braver.
I'll be brave enough until I able to be proud of my answer,
To the past me I'll come and tell her the things I have came to conquer.

My fears and my tears I am able to wipe away,
No longer are my skies gray.
For I have found myself the real answer,
To love myself and then I shall no longer suffer.