Silenced

Chapter Twenty Two

Chapter Twenty Two: Breaking Down

Brianna’s POV

My body went rigid and my eyes were probably as wide as they could get. Was he going to kiss me on the lips? The cheek? The forehead? I have never been kissed before. What should I do?

“J-Jeremy?” I whispered so low I didn’t even know if he could hear me. If the Lord is with me this second; then he better hear me.

To my avail, he stopped leaning and his eyes fluttered open, “I-I’m sorry.” He stuttered, leaning away from me. His cheeks were flushed red and he looked ashamed of himself.

“It’s okay…” I mumbled, biting my lip. But, was it really okay? He knew full well I was mad at him and he thinks he can kiss me? Plus, even if I wasn’t mad with him, we aren’t even on the level of that kind of thing. I haven’t dated anyone; let alone kissed someone.

“No it isn’t, Brianna. I have made everything tonight a freaking mess! I have made you upset with me, I have made you cry and I try to kiss you to make it all better! I am such an idiot.” He yelled out in rage with himself. I just watched him break down as a small tear fell down his cheek. One part of me felt that he deserved to feel this way and the other, less cruel, part of me felt sympathy towards the boy.

“Please don’t cry,” I begged quietly, placing a hand on his bicep. He looked at me like an innocent little child that got scolded. He nodded his head and wiped the single tears on his cheeks, “Thank you.”

“Brianna?” He asked after a moment of silence.

“Yes?” I asked wearily.

He took a deep breath, “What would you have done if I would’ve kissed you?” He wondered.

His question caught me off guard. What would I have done? Would I have shoved him away? Resisted him? Or kissed back? Just thinking about kissing him back made my head dizzy. I didn’t like Jeremy like that, right? Or do I?

“I honestly don’t know.” I answered back truthfully.

“That’s a relief.” He let out a breath I didn’t know he was holding.

“Why is that?” I wondered.

“I was kind of afraid you were going to say that you were going to slap me…” He trailed off.

Laughter bubbled up inside me and I let it out; loud and proud. Jeremy stared at me for a second before joining me in laughter. The sound of us laughing was like music to my ears. Soon, our chuckles turned into giggles and our giggles tuned into silence.

“It was nice to hear you laugh.” Jeremy commented. A blush crept up on my cheeks.

“Thanks. It is nice to hear you laugh as well.” I replied, fiddling with my fingers.

I had just now realized we had been sitting in his car for almost 15 minutes now. I better be getting inside or I will really get a beating, “I have to go.”

“Oh right,” He sighed, “Um, thanks for going. Even if it did turn into a total disaster.”

“You’re welcome. At least I learned my lesson on never to go to parties again.” I pointed out and let out a semi humorous chuckle.

“I guess so. I think I learned my lesson too.” He agreed. I nodded in agreement, “Goodnight, Brianna.”

“Goodnight, Jeremy” I replied, stepping out of the car. I slammed the door behind me and walked up on the porch. Jeremy honked the horn of his car as he drove away. A sudden weight hit me as I opened up the front door. I was now alone with my own thoughts. Thoughts that kill me on the inside.

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