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Chap. 22 [Unedited]

He's My Ruthless Billionaire

Chap. 22

Errin Blake

She was everything to me. 

I honestly didn't know why I did what I did but I was so perplexed right now looking at the women before me. She kissed me like she wouldn't stop and I liked it because it showed me how much she loved me...for me...

She was anxious I could see it and I also knew she was happy to be with me tonight as I was with her. She made me feel like I didn't have so many burdens, as if my life was easy. She was my shade, my sanity and she didn't even know it. I smiled at her as she looked at me, such a beautiful women. I couldn't imagine not knowing her, she had showed me so much about myself that I didn't even know existed and some as to what she was oblivious.

I wonder if Grace was crazy, what was there for Stella to know about that she didn't already know? And what the hell didn't I know about her? Stella, didn't have much more personality than what she put out to people and she saw me in my worse set of times and she always calmed me. Was I just being stupid and clouded by my emotions?

Yes you were... My subconscious highlighted... I chuckled to myself.

"Talking to yourself Errin?" She smiled before taking a sip of her water, "I'm intrigued, are you getting mad?"

I cocked an eyebrow at her, "What? I don't talk to myself.." I almost laughed. If only she knew what I was really thinking about.

"Really? You just called yourself a stupid." She had this grin on her face, like she won a medal or something that I didn't know about.

I laughed, "That I am for sure."

She laughed vulgarly, "Alright Errin, I'll have to agree with you on that one."

I was smiling like a mad man at her, it had been so long since we were this happy with each other and this was mostly silence.

I missed my woman. I needed her back, Grace was a blasted fool. Therapist my ass. She must had been through some fucked up relationships  before she found her husband and she wanted that for everyone she could make it happen for... BItch!

"Thank you very much Stella." I emphasized.

She cringed when I said that, "Did I say something wrong love?"

With a long sigh, "I really miss when you used to call me Ella. I honestly don't like when you say Stella, it drives me crazy."

I felt my heart melt, I never knew a woman could be this affected by a man. I never know that she was having a problem with it. She probably never said anything because she knew I wouldn't change it. Honestly, I purposely stopped calling her Ella to see if she would realize and also because I was upset with her.

"Be honest with me Stella, how well do you know me?"

She looked at me for awhile, "Trust me, I know you more than you think or whatever the hell your therapist says."

I chuckled at that one, "Really, in one breath give me a summary."

She eyed me deliciously and I had to restrain myself from not taking her to my car and fuck her right there in the parking lot not caring who wanted to listen or look on - and I knew she would let me.

"Errin Blake, my ruthless billionaire..." she trailed, "He is a mixture of sweet charm, a bit rough around the edges, cold to plenty and timid to his love ones. He is a control freak, wanting things to go his way only and if not he's angry. He goes to therapy which he doesn't need because he honestly knows how to go about doing what he really wants. He's in love with a woman that he is confused about but she wants him to know that she is truly sorry."

I took her hand and kissed it, "I'll be quitting therapy."

She smiled, "Good because I hated her."

I shook my head but said nothing afterwards, I still didn't think I was ready to tell her that I wanted her back though. I wanted to see how much she really loved me. I went through so much when she left me, I couldn't sleep or eat - I was a lost puppy and she had to be the one to find me.

I didn't want her to go through what I did but I wanted her to know that nothing was wrong with cutting her pride and let me know that she wanted me back. Be assertive. My baby didn't messaged me if I didn't, she didn't call me if I never gave her a miss call, she was giving me time but I was wondering how long before she would break...how long would she take to ask me or tell me that she was tired of waiting on me.

This sounded like a declaration a woman should make. I would probably have to go back on my word though, that much I knew. Stella may never say all of that to me. But damn it was good to imagine.

It had been a good while without her in my bed, in my arms, under my body... I needed her...

"Errin, you are giving me that look that you give me when you want to fuck."

I made up my face, "Gosh woman, why do you have to be so blunt?"

She laughed but shrugged.

"Let's order baby." I said before calling over the waiter, I had to end this conversation because I really didn't want to go back to my car...

~*~

We were currently on our way home, I was taking her home to be more precise. I would miss her, I hadn't been on a date for years. She obviously loved my company as I did hers... Everybody might be thinking I was some sappy little fuck and it was fine. I loved this woman too much.

I held her hand and kissed it for about the hundredth time since the night had started and each time she would blush crimson. I was contented with the time she spent me.

The night was a blessing to a curse that was on me. I always tried to screwed up everything that was going good when it came to my relationships.

"No Errin, you haven't screwed up this one." She kissed my hand, "Forever and always, I'll love you..."

I closed my eyes for a brief moment, Errin fucking Blake, stop this damn car... You fool...

I pulled over and turned to her, "Ella...baby..."

She looked at me with a confused expression, "Why did you stop?"

I thought about it for awhile, I was in turmoil...tell her or not tell her? I was confused. When she said that I was confused about her, she was indeed correct. I needed her, I missed her... I had been so cold to her for the past two months and she just embraced it and said nothing.

With my hand on her cheek, I rubbed it, "Why do you have to be so beautiful?"

She smiled, "Thank you Errin."

The decision was made and I drove off, I saw her from the corner of my eye when she took that deep exhale...at least that showed that I wasn't the only the one with such feeling.

Finally I was at her house, she looked at me not moving for awhile...then I saw her took off the seat belt... I eyed her with each movement she made.

She finally looked at me, "I need you Errin, I miss you... I won't let you leave tonight without you telling me that we are together. If you leave Errin, that would be it...I can't take this anymore."

"Why?"

"Because it hurts to be with you and not be with you... I love you too much and that makes it unbearable..."

I turned to look at her, tears filled her eyes, "I see..." I trialed, "Do you really love me?"

"Yes... For heaven sake, yes Errin... I love you so much, it hurt..."

"Then why? Why give up on me so easily? Why not fight a little harder?"

She sighed, "Because I can't..."