Chapter 14
When I sit down and think about things and the fact my life was doomed from the get go the decisions my parents decided to make for me to get themselves the kind of life they wanted. To think I was just an object to them like a treaty or agreement.
To think the one thing or man that is destined to love me or only want just me, the one that is supposed to be, just that ya know? The One! Is completely into every other girl that walks by his face and its as if you don’t really even matter unless you are in his direct line of view and no one else is in his peripherals.
To think I can’t even be full something, I have to be half one thing and half of another, I feel like just calling myself the Half Blood like in Harry Potter or something. I realize no ones life is perfect but I have to think that I definitely got the shorter end of the stick when my life came into view. I look around the room and the two men sitting before me.
Gorgeous men, set out to be the mortal enemy of that one side of me that seems so unreal. Yet they sit here with tears in their eyes over me and with all these thoughts pondering I wonder if my life is doomed to be spent alone or if I could manage to make it out okay here. Maybe find someone to grow old or in my case stay young with.
I wondered if my future was changeable or if I was frozen the way I was now forever or when I stopped aging in less then 5 years. Would I ever find someone to love to have children with? Was I even able to bear children and if I did what would the child be. There was so many questions with so many unknown answers .
When I opened my eyes back up they were burning and I could feel the blood run down my cheeks. As it does whenever I cry now and when any other vampire does. Its mortifying the first few times but when your crying every day you get used to the feeling and the sight. My eyes opened to just Quien sitting on the bed staring at me, eyes bulged at the sight out my “tears”.
“Gross isn’t it?” I said as I wiped the blood away with my jacket sleeve.
Quien chuckled and pulled me into a hug. “Stay with me please Mia. Just me, neither of us will be alone and we can help eachother carry on with these horrible lives we’ve been dealt.”
I looked into his eyes wondering why he was so hurt and had to ask. The story of his parets being killed by vampires and his mate sleeping with Tanner and every other wolf in the pack but him was shocking . I didn’t know what to say and it hurt me even more that I could still see the love in his eyes when he talked about her the sweetness in his voice when he spoke her name.
I knew then that for now Quien and I were exactly what each other needed. We were both so bent out of shape we needed someone on the same level to help us get through it.
I didn’t know how things were going to work or if they were even going to work at all, but I knew I had to try, or we had to try because in truth what other options did we truly have.
Tanner’s Point of view
As she stand in front of me I wonder to myself why I get myself in these predicaments. Act the way I do. It really never makes sense afterwards. The way I want to just run and pick her up in my arms tell her everythings okay and things will get better, but the problem is all the bad is because of me.
How am I to make something better when I have turned her to hate me. I see the hurt in her eyes, the pain and to think of what shes went through she needs someone like Quien now, and for once I need to be the one to accept pain so that se can heal the wounds I inflicted upon her in the first place even if I would much rather it be me at her side then him.
I left the room when she started crying, I didn’t know what to say and knew there was nothing I could say. It was oddly quiet in the house , especially for a pack house but after last night there was probably a lot of explaining that had to be done. I woke up Ana, well Anastasia is her real name and asked her to leave and I would pick her up later after things were settled. If they ever were.
Ana was the sweet modelesque girl that you never find, usually they are stuck up as hell but she was carefree and sweet hearted. She would make someone happy one day, unlike me who just ruins peoples’ lives. I knew Ana was falling for me and I knew no matter whether I wanted to fall for her or I didn’t I never could. I told myself while Mi—She was gone that it was over and I needed to move on .
When I found Ana I thought I could change my deep destiny feelings I could make myself love her instead. But it doesn’t work that way and every time I see HER my heart clenches I want her in my arms. I knew I was doomed he day my wolf stopped asking to claim her , the look like she could kill me warned him to stay away and he listened like a coward I guess my wolf is as stupid as my human is.
I try to tell myself over time she’ll come back to me, we will find our way back to each other and back to the life we are supposed to live as one. But until then I wait.
