Chapter 17
Mias point of view
I didn’t expect what came next as he threw me off to the side of him onto the bed and stood up.
“While I’m saying no, you tthink I don’t have a choice or decision I do!”
I thought I had broke before when Quien had denied me, but this was a million times worse. I just looked at myself wondering what could be so wrong with me that no one not even my mate wanted to have sex with me.
“Why don’t you want me! You are supposed to be genetically made to want me! So just tell me what is wrong with me that no one in this world wants me! Am I not attractive, is it because of what I am… Whats wrong with me , that not even you, will have sex with me.”
I was screaming and the blood was flowing down my cheeks. If I knew how to get my life over with I really would have by know im mean im technically kind of dead and theres no point in life when it lasts forever specially when your life is one like mine. He stood there staring at me as a tear fell down his cheek.
“I love you Mi-Mi and that is why I won’t have sex with you. If you have sex with me you are mated to me! And if you don’t love me back then whats the point? I can’t just have sex with you , I really can’t. You are the most beautiful woman in the world and the most intriguing and indecisive and I love every freaking part of your crazy self, but you Mia you don’t love me.”
“How can I love someone who loves every other girl or is with another girl every day. Do you ever think of how different things would have been if when I came back she wasn’t here, you weren’t upstairs having sex with her? We might have had a chance talked it over, but how can we talk this over when even when I was 10 feet away from you all you were thinking about was her.”
There was a long pause I knew he was going to answer and we would just keep going but I didn’t want to argue, I had come here to be released and calm myself and I had done neither. I went to stand and he pulled me back to the bed lightly and I let him.
“I can’t have sex with you mi-mi not til I fix this, but I am willing to stop everyone else and be with you for the rest of my life, not just now and even if you chose not to be with me. I will stay true to this.”
“But you need a heir to the alpha position, you need a son. I cant make you promise that.”
“An Alpha is nothing without without his Alpha mate and I can’t produce a heir without you my love.”
“I will try, not to love you but to be okay with you, as long as you…” I slid closer to him on the bed and laid beside him.. I took his hand and slowly moved it to my inner thigh where his fingertips sent jolts through my body.
His hand caressed my inner thigh for a slight while before moving closer and closer up to me. My breathing became unsteady the electricity was flowy through me as I arched my head to the ceiling as he gently rubbed the outside of me in delicate circles and sliding his middle finger inside of me. I let outa breath of air and a moan soon after, I looked at him as he stared at me his eyes filled with wonder and happiness and curiousity. The moans came quicker and quicker as his finger moved in and out of me and flickered inside. I could feel myself building up waiting for a release as I arched my back and he leant over me my hands went his back and I clenched as I sang the moan I had been waiting to sing my whole life. I slowly released and opened my eyes to look into his that were a lot darker then I had ever seen before and I heard him growl and instead of leaving I rubbed his chest and sat up as he did.
I’m sure he expected me to leave but I didn’t I pushed him back into a lay position and undid his towel. I was more nervous then I had ever been in my entire life as I look at a very nice looking and sized penis in front of me. I told myself over and over you can do this , stop worrying it will be fine. Right as I swung my hair to one side and lowered my head he had to speak,
