STORM.

☹fifty one

now,

it was winter.

it's now been a hundred days since that day everything changed.

watching the snow fall was oddly beautifully heartbreaking.

how fitting for such a sad anniversary.

now that it was december,

there was no storms.

only snow,

ice,

and cold lonely nights.

i didn't talk it out with them.

yet,

i didn't really do much talking anymore.

there's obviously been times where i wanted to.

times i've seen you in the hallways or walking home from school and i wanted to run into your arms and apologize for everything.

you used to send texts and leave voicemails begging for me to just answer one of your calls or just tell you if i was really giving up on us-

our friendship.

just our friendship.

we've never had anything more.

just,

friendship.

i used to stay awake at night watching you sleep either beside me or on a screen,

your light snoring used to annoy me sometimes,

but i never realized how silent the darkness was without it.

for some reason though,

it's not the haunting kind of silence anymore.

now it's more like a missing piece of a puzzle needing to be filled.

i saw you today.

you were with a girl,

and you seemed happy.

whenever i saw your flushed face with another person before,

i felt jealous and angry,

but for some reason,

watching the way she made you smile made me happy.

i was happy to see you like that again.

because even if it's not because of me,

your smile was the only thing in this world that made me believe in happiness.

so,

as long as you can smile like that-

no matter because of who,

i can smile too.