Forever: The Beginning

Chapter Four

Jack's Point of view

It took me a while to realize we were holding hands. I let go of hers.

Stupid.

I turned around, and said, "I should go." I left right after that.

I flew on the wind, I was tired but I had to. I ended up sitting on a mountain. I was out of breath.

I suddenly felt guilty, for leaving her. I looked up at the man in the moon, and I was reminded of her. "I had to leave. One second more and I would've.." I stopped myself as if she was around.

I don't understand why I let myself behave this way around her.

Why do I lose control?

I lowered my head, looked away. Before I knew it, I was thinking of her.

Her smile that would brighten anyone's day.

Her big, beautiful blue eyes that I could lose myself in.

Her laugh, oh what a laugh she had. It was music to my ears.

And her touch.

She always believed that she was a monster, but I always knew that wasn't true...To me she was everything.

If only she knew how hard it was for me to leave her.

If only she knew the real reason I left her.

If only she knew how much pain I feel when I'm around her.

If only she knew how much I crave her touch.

If only she knew how much I crave her lips.

If only she knew how much I love her.

What am I thinking?

She could never love someone like me. I can never offer her what she deserves. I can't allow myself to be that selfish.

To put her through that... But I also can't leave her again.

The pain I saw in her eyes today, she must've been through alot... More than she'll ever admit.

That's my Elsa. Always selfless.

"How can I be around her when all I want to do is kiss her? Tell me. How?"