Please Use Discretion//Josh Dun Fan Fic

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Not sure how this is going to go, enjoy.
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Elaina's POV
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Josh and I had started hanging out a lot more often. Last week he took me to Tyler's apartment so I could meet Brendon Urie, I ended up hanging out with Brendon and even got his number, he had given it to me so we can keep in contact while he was out of town and back on tour.

I let him stay at my house until my parents got back from their vacation. I still haven't felt safe even after Jake was locked away until our court date. In a couple months. Josh helped keep my mind off him though. He would talk about his family, friends, funny childhood stories. I loved how open he was with me. I say it a lot but he genuinely makes feel so safe and sound. I'm not sure what it is about this boy but I can't get enough of it.

I've been working on a English paper. Tomorrow was the day I had to go to the horrible shitty place called school. I had to turn in a months worth of homework. I was sitting on my bed, Josh was next to me scrolling through twitter, laughing every once and a while, possibly at a funny tweet he had read. As I write down what is needed for the poem I was studying, A Dream Within A Dream by Edgar Allan Poe.

"Hey Elaina?" I hear Josh say.
I see his head turn to face me in my
peripheral vision. "Yeah?" I reply, eyes still fixed on the paper I've been writing on. "Do you need me to go with you tomorrow?" he asks with worry in his tone. I look at him confused "Why would you have to? I'm just going to be there for an hour or so." I say continuing with a laugh.

"It's just...you told me once that school was the cause of issues you said you have." He says quietly, trying not to sound rude. The expression on my face fades, the memories that i've had from that school flooded my mind.

*Flash Backs*

"Why the hell are you so depressing Elaina?" says Maggie, the girl Elaina feared. Maggie stood in front of Elaina, pointing out all of her flaws.

"You're always listening to depressing music and looking so depressed and sad. Why don't you just stop? Like, just stop being such a depressing piece of shit." Maggie said getting in Elaina's face.

Elaina had just calmed down from a panic attack she had in Gym class. She couldn't be in there with all the other girls, her anxiety was fucking with her head so much. Thoughts made her insecure, thoughts made her hate who she was. The music she listened to helped her through it all. But even then, she wasn't accepted by the kids from that school.

Maggie had continued to judge Elaina, along with Maggie's friends who stood behind her laughing at the poor girl with puffy red eyes from crying. 
"Awh, is the fat ass crying because Maggie said the truth about her?"

"The music she listens to is shitty honestly."

"She probably does this all for attention."

"She's probably a psycho and cuts herself like the other emo freaks!"

Elaina heard all these comments pestering her, until finally the bell rang signaling it was time to leave school. Elaina had ran home to school that evening.

When she made it into her house she didn't even care to greet her family that was hanging out in the family room, she went strait for her room
and slammed the door behind her, Locking the door she slowly slides. down the door, tears rushing down her face.
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I heard a few knocks at the door but I ignored them, my mind was a war zone. Killing me on the inside with what i've convinced myself to think.