The 30 Day Letter Challenge!

Day 12 (Dear the one I hate most/caused me the most pain)

Dear "Theif" and her lover,

Oh yes. That's right. 

"Theif" and her lover. Loverboy, well, he's definitely the one that's caused me the most pain. "Theif", however, is the one I hate most. I even wrote my English poem on "Thief". It goes like...

 It all began on Christmas Eve

I should've been happy, but instead I had grieved

I had become convinced that you're the one he cares about

It was no longer me, I had no doubts

I think thief should be your name

After all, stealing is your game

But this game that we played wasn't amusing like tag,

Instead, it was such a horrible drag

And now this is the end,

You have won, my “friend”

You’re the victor of this round

Go on, go ahead, take your bow

But before you do, let me just say that I think that he's blind

After all, he abandoned me for a girl that's everything but kind.

Haha stupid, right? I know. It's the cheesiest thing ever. But as long as Mrs. Lang likes it then I'm good! Anyway, we all know the story of "thief". She's a man stealer.

As for her "lover"... Thief flirts with him everyday, and he doesn't even notice. Actually, I think he notices it. In fact, he just flirts right back. But what bugs me most is that when the two of them talk and hang out, it just seems so natural, and they both look comfortable with each other. But when he and I talk... It's full of awkward silences, me constantly saying stupid things over and over like, "I'm tired" because I have nothing else to say, and well, basically me just talking to myself. And "loverboy"... I know I should hate you for everything you've done and all that's happened between us, but... I don't. I've tried to but... I just can't. And I'm so mad at myself. I have given you way too many chances. You're clueless, we all know that, but clueless-ness has a line, that you definitely crossed. But still.. I can't bring myself to hate you... And I hate it.

Now that I think about it though, Josh may be right. I think I am overreacting. But like I said, it just irritates me how natural they seem together, and I'm jealous. Yeah, I admit it. I'm jealous. I could get jealous at anybody now because we've finally fallen apart. And there's nothing we can do, life is just like that. I mean, no point in picking up broken glass. Wow, I'm so pathetic. Now I'm using lyrics. I'm just going to end here before I become anymore pathetic. 

-Katie