Why so quiet ?

Chapter 10

POV Spencer

We rushed into the hospital. I was so scared. JJ went to ask informations about June but the nurses couldn't tell us anything. So we went in the waiting room. I sat but stood up quickly too shaken to stay still. Garcia arrived running and breathless.
"Where is she ?" She asked.
"She's into surgery. We don't know anything." Jj informed her.
She turned her head towards me.
"She's really cute Reid." She told me.
My words were stuck in my throat. I felt my eyes watering.
"Yeah i know. She is." I stuttered.
"Oh my boy. Don't worry she will be fine she's seen worse." She told me.
"What do you mean ?" I asked her completely lost.
"What do you know about her family ?" She asked me.
"Absolutely nothing. She never wanted to talk about it. Is there something wrong ?"
"Euh... no nothing is wrong"."
"I know you're lying."
"She has to tell you herself. I'm sorry."

June has been in surgery for 2 hours now. I was so worried that i even refused coffee.
The doctor just came in and everyone stood up.
"Hi are you here for June Hawkins ?" He asked us.
"Yes. Is she alive ?" I asked him panicking.
"She made it. She has been stabbed in the back and she has lost a lot of blood but she's alive. She should wake up soon but she'll be in a wheelchair for at least a month. So she will need help." He explained.
"Thank you very much." I told him. "Could i see her ?"
"Is there family here ?" He asked me.
I looked at Garcia knowing there was a problem with her family.
"No family but i'm a ..... friend." I replied.
"Ok you can see her but only one person. She needs to rest."
"Thanks."

I followed the doctor to her room. When he left i softly knocked on the door. I had no answer so i got inside.
I saw that she was awake but i could see she wasn't well.

(Her hands are a mix of all the pictures.)

She turned her face towards me and i could tell she was surprised to see me there.
"Hi." I said timidly.
"What are you doing here." She asked me frowning.
"Euh... right. I have to tell you something. Euh... i'm not a writer."
"You lied to me."
"I'm so sorry i had to. I work in the BAU. It's a branch of the FBI." I replied ashamed.
"You found me ?"
"Yeah we did."
"You saw what he did to me ?" She asked me crying.
I didn't want to answer. She was embarrassed but she shouldn't be. She didn't do anything bad.
"I did." I came closer to the bed. "Don't hide yourself. What he did to you wasn't right. You couldn't fight back." I tried to reassure her.
She began crying and she went under the blankets. She didn't want me to look at her.

(Picture taken from the korean movie Hope)

She was sobbing.
"Are you scared of me ?" I asked.
She shook her head. I felt relief.
"Why do you hide yourself then?"
"He broke me." She whispered.
"Don't say that. You have to be strong."
"He undid everything i've done." She slid her hands towards me keeping the blanket on her body. "See he even took my ring and everything that went with it."
"I know what you're thinking. But you're not dirty. You're still who you are. You didn't agree with what he did." I tried to reassure her but i was scared too.
"He didn't do it." She murmured.
"What ?"
"Rape. He didn't rape me. He t.... touched me everywhere...but he didn't rape me. It's weird because i feel like he did."
I felt my heart breaking into pieces and tears began falling down my face. She couldn't see me and i was glad.
I felt hands gripping mine softly. I looked at it and saw that she reached my hands.
"Don't cry for me." She said.
"Remove this blanket then. I need to see the beautiful girl i fell for." I admitted without being scared of rejecn.
I saw her head tilting towards me. I could feel her thinking about what i just said.
"You what ?"
"I fell for you. And it breaks me to see that you're hiding from me. I'm not him and you're free."

POV June

I trusted him.
I removed the blanket but kept my eyes on the bed.
His hands found mine again and it felt like my anchor right now.
"I'm here. And i will not leave you." He promised me.
"Why did you lie to me ?" I asked him.
"I wanted to protect you and avoid what happened but trying to keep you for myself didn't work. I'm sorry." He said looking at our linked hands.
"You should not be sorry. It wasn't your fault. I should have been more careful."

A knock on the door broke our little bubble. We could see a nurse's head getting in.
"I have to change your bandages Miss. Is this young man staying ?" She asked me.
I looked at Spencer. He stared at me asking me if he could stay.
"It's not pretty Spencer. And i think i'm not ready." I murmured.
"I understand i'm gonna wait outside. I promise i'll come back after." He told me leaning to kiss my bruised hands.
I didn't know if it made me blush but in my heart it did.
I looked at him leaving.
"Your boyfriend is handsome Miss you're lucky." The nurse told me.
"He is not my... boyfriend."
"I'm sorry but he look at you like you're his girlfriend."
I thought about what she said but when she started cleaning my wounds i flinched from the pain, the physical touch and the memories that went with those marks.

POV Spencer
When i got back to the waiting room i told the team that June seemed to be fine and that they could go home. Hotch told me that they would have to come back to take her statement. When they left i knew what i needed to do. Find something to make June smile again and i knew what she needed. Herself.