Why so quiet ?

Chapter 6

POV Spencer

I was at a bar tonight with the team to have fun after this hard and long case we've done. JJ was talking about Henry but as much as i loved him i couldn't stop thinking about June.
"Spence are you okay ?" She asked me.
"Euh what ? Yeah don't worry i'm fine just tired." I replied.
Satisfied by my answer she went on with what her son have done at school.
Garcia came back from the bar with shots which i didn't take.
When i turned around i saw her. She was there dressed in black from her toes to her head. I saw that she didn't have her hands bandaged anymore which relieved me. She wasn't alone. I felt anger when i saw a man with her.
I've never felt this feeling. I wondered who he was. I felt what i supposed was jealousy. I forgot I was with the team so i couldn't react and i hoped she would not see me.
My heart stopped when she turned towards me and locked her eyes with mine. She smiled and i had to hide mine even if i wanted to return it. Her face dropped and my heart broke but i had to hide her from the team so i turned back and tried to forget she was there. I knew i hurt her. The evening went on and Garcia was dancing with JJ. I saw that June wasn't there anymore. Maybe she went home with that hot guy. When the girls came back to drink i told them goodbye.
When i arrived in my street i was choked to see her down my building.

She saw i was there and walked towards her. I was so nervous.
"Hi."
"Hi. What happened in that bar ? I think you ignored me but i'm not sure. Did you ?" She asked me fidgeting with her hand.
"Yeah i did i'm so sorry." I replied scared by what she would think.
"Why did you do it ? Where you ashamed of me that you didn't want your friends to see me ?" She replied half crying.
"No i would never be ashamed of you. I just want...you know... to keep you to myself. I don't want them to come between us. And to judge us not just you." I said.
"But they are your friends."
"Yeah but your more than that for me and they would not understand. Your so young and pure and kind and lovely...i don't know...i'm sorry i ignored you."
"It hurt me when you turned away from me." She told me breaking my heart.
"I know i'm so so sorry."
"I forgive you. I trust you and i like you too much to be mean to you." She murmured smiling.
"I like you too you know. I don't know where we're going. I thought i was just a friend to you."
"Why did you think that ?" She asked me a bit surprised.
"You were with a man tonight." I said biting my lip a bit ashamed of my jealousy.
"He is my friend just my friend. And he's already with someone but she couldn't come. Were you jealous ?
"No absolutely no." I felt so embarrassed for being jealous when she didn't say anything about JJ and Garcia.
"Thanks for caring about me." She said.
"I just want to be with you and alone. Sorry it's weird but i'm afraid you'll be hurt."
"Don't be sorry. You know i'm dangerous for myself don't be paranoid about other danger." She tried to reassure me but it made it worse.
"I saw your hands were better."
"Yeah i try to contain myself. I think a lot about you to calm me." She told me smiling.
I'm sure it made me blush.
"I'm glad i help you even if i'm not there."
"Do you want to come in my apartment ?" I suggested.
"Euh...i don't know. It's getting late."
"Please it's been a week and i need to spend time with you."
"Ok i'll stay." She agreed.

POV June

When we entered i immediately felt home. It's a lovely place. Warm and calm. It smells of books. I love it.
I dropped my bag on the sofa and turned towards Spencer. He was shaking. I instantly came closer to him and took his hands in mine. They were so cold. I tried to search for his eyes. We didn't need to talk.
I hugged him and i felt he was tense probably surprised by my action. I've never hug someone but it was good. I don't know if it came from Spencer or if it was always like that. He encircled my waist with his arms. I felt so safe. Physical contact wasn't always supposed to be sexual. We stayed like that for ten minutes i think. I broke out our embrace and finally found his eyes. I saw his eyes deriving from my eyes to my lips. I got scared and turned around quickly.
"Do you want to kiss me ?" I asked him.
I felt him moving behind me and his breath was heavy.
"euh..." That's not the answer i wanted.
"Honestly yes i want too. I've never said that. It's weird. I'm sorry i scared you." He explained.
I blushed.
"I've never kissed anyone."
"Really ? Is it because you're you know...?"
"Asexual. Yeah i think and no one ever wanted to kiss me before." I replied ashamed.
"Your first kiss should not be like that." He said.
"What ? Natural ? Lovely ? Full of feelings ?" I turned around and got stuck in his eyes. I had to look up you know because he was really tall. It made me laugh inside.
"Yeah it should be like that but not with talking around and you getting scared. I want it but your not ready."
"Thanks. You're really a beautiful human being." I replied and stepped closer to kiss his cheek. Maybe i was not ready for my lips on someone else ones but i had to give that little thing to him. It felt good.

POV Spencer

Her lips were really warm and soft. At that moment i was content with them on my cheek. She took a step back and i could see she was happy. I was too.
"You should stay the night you know it's late and...."
"Okay." She replied quickly.
"Euh..ok. i'll let you my bed."
"There's no way i take your bed. Your sofa seems comfortable."
"I can't..." I tried to convince her.
"Don't try it. I take the sofa."
"It's up to you. But i'll stay with you on the floor."
"You will not sleep on your floor in your apartment."
"Yes i will." I replied.
"Your stubborn."
"I'm proud of it." I made her laugh. I don't think i've ever made a girl laugh that much in my life. With Maeve it was almost virtual and real at the same time but there was not amusement between us. Yes of course she's still and will always be in my heart but i felt like June had a huge place in it more and more.
"I will see if i have a shirt for you to sleep in." I told her before going to my room.

When i got back i gave her my MIT shirt. She analysed it and then smiled to me without mentioning my link with this university. I show her the bathroom and went back in my room to change and collect pillows and blankets.
When i got back she was sat on the sofa but she was acting strangely. I automatically made the link between her actual behaviour and her asexuality. She was uncomfortable because i could see her skin. I dropped everything i had on the floor to kneel in front of her. She looked at me and i tried not to stare at her naked legs.
"This ugly shirt really needed a beautiful girl to wear it." I tried to cheer her up.
It worked because she laughed.
"I know you're trying to make me focus on something else. You still haven't look at my legs. You're really amazing. You try to adapt to me and i appreciate that." And then she kissed my cheek again. She has to stop doing that.
"Can i return it ?" I asked timidly.
She nodded and i tried to be as gentle as i could. When my lips came in contact with her cheek i felt my stomach swinging. I tried to go further without scaring her. I kissed her forehead then her cheeks then her eyes then her nose and i stopped there respecting her.

She giggled and smiled. I smiled too. We were so comfortable with each other. I loved us. She kissed my nose quickly and hide herself in the pillows laughing. I felt as if i was the same age as her. Our age gap wasn't important right now. We were together.
We looked at each other without saying anything. I wanted to hold her. But that would have been too much.
"We should sleep." She said.
"Yeah we should."
I knew neither of us really wanted to go to sleep but it was better this way. So i placed some pillows and blankets on the floor and gave her one blanket too. I turned off the light. It took me some minutes to fall asleep. I finally realised that June was sleeping next to me on my sofa in my apartment.