Why so quiet ?

Chapter 14

POV Spencer

When i woke up this morning i turned around and saw June sleeping. She seemed peaceful but i could see that she thought a lot in her sleep. The frowning between her eyebrows made me think she was having a nightmare. I kept looking at her for a few minutes before getting up and going in the bathroom to take a shower.

When i came back in the room June was awake. She looked at me chocked and turned her face towards the wall. She really thought i was ugly and that my body wasn't good.
"Euh i'm sorry i'll dress." I told her ashamed.
I took some clothes and went back into the bathroom to dress.
I looked in the mirror.
"Am i really ugly ?" I asked to myself.
"You're not." Her voice scared me. I found her in her wheelchair. She came closer to me. I didn't understand what she was trying to tell me.
"Come here." She told me.
I obeyed and knelt down. She took my face between her hands and looked straight in my eyes.
"I know what you're thinking. I don't think you're ugly. You're handsome. If i didn't want to look at you half naked it's because i'm embarrassed. You know i feel sick towards nudity. You don't disgust me it's just the fact of someone naked. I was naked in your arms yesterday and you was so gentle. I thank you again for this but i'm not ready to do that." She explained.
She was so sweet.
I hugged her and she didn't flinch.
"Thank you." I whispered in her ear.
"You don't have to. I should be the sorry one. You have to deal with my problem and..."
"It's absolutely not a problem. Don't think your asexuality is a problem. It's who you are."
I could see her thanking me through her eyes.
"I should dress." She said.
"I'll help you."
"Thanks."

We went back to the room and she took the clothes she wanted to wear.
She sat on the bed. I took the hem of her top and removed it. She hide her breasts.
I took her bra and placed it on her arms. She put it on her breasts and i clipped it in her back trying to not hurt her. Then i dressed her with the sweeter she choose. I helped her stand up and kept my hand on her waist. I brought her pants down and she removed it with her feet. I helped her get into her panties. Then i placed her jeans on the floor and she put her feet in each legs. I knelt in front of her to put her jeans on her waist.
She kept her hands on my shoulder to steady herself. When we finished i sat her on the wheelchair again.

"Are you hungry ?" I asked her.
"Yeah i'm starving." She answered smiling.

We went in the kitchen and i took everything we needed. We ate our breakfast on the sofa. It was a bit new for me because i was rarely there in the morning. That's when i realised that June changed my life in only two months.
But my smile disappeared when i realised i needed to go to work today even if we didn't have a case.
"I'm gonna have to go work today." I told her.
"Euh ok you're going to catch bad boys."
"Yeah that's what i do."

I went back in my room to take my bag. When i came back June's eyes were on me. I knew she was a bit scared of staying alone. I came towards her and took her face in my hands.
"I promise you nothing is gonna happen to you. You're safe here." I told her.
She looked at me with tears in her eyes. I knew she still had the images in her head.
I slowly kissed her eyes hoping her fear would go away. I didn't want to leave her sad and scared. I went to my book shelf and took what i needed. I placed the book on the sofa and placed June on it. She looked at me wondering what i was doing.
"My mom used to read this book to me when i was young. I want you to read it."
"Ok." She murmured.
I kissed her forehead before leaving but she was already deep in the book.

When i arrived at the BAU i saw that a lot of files were on my desk. I knew i would have a lot of work to do.
"Hello Spence." I heard JJ behind me.
"Hi how are you ?"
"Fine and you with the beautiful June ?" She asked smirking.
"She's dealing with her memories but she's okay."
I knew she was hiding something from me. She avoided my eyes. When i turned around i saw Hotch and Rossi coming towards me.
"Hello Reid. Miss Hawkins is at your apartment right ?" Hotch asked me.
"Yes she is. Why ?"
"We need her statement." Rossi said.
"Do you really have to do this right now ?" I knew June wasn't ready.
"It's better to do it now. You know it." JJ said.
Of course i knew that.
But i also knew June would break again.