Why so quiet ?

Chapter 16

POV June

When i opened my eyes this morning i met Spencer's closed one. I took five minutes to study him closely. His face seemed peaceful but i knew his mind wasn't. His hands were really bad. I decided to make breakfast so i grabbed my wheelchair and took a deep breath to put myself on it. When i landed on it i started wheeling myself towards the bathroom. I couldn't really see myself in the mirror so i brushed my teeths as well as i could. Then i went into the small kitchen and prepared pancakes.

POV Spencer

This morning i opened my eyes and reached for June but all i could feel was coldness. I instantly stood up and went into the living room.

"June ? Where are you ?" I screamed worried.
"In the kitchen." A small voice answered.

When i entered the kitchen i saw her trying to make pancakes. She looked at me and i reached her spreading my arms for her to settle in. She got the message. I put my face in her hair and closed my eyes breathing deeply.

"I'm right here." She whispered in my ear.
That's all i needed.

We stayed like this for maybe five or ten minutes. Then we ate in silence. I knew she wanted to know what happened yesterday.

"About yesterday...." I began.
"I don't want to know." She said.
"Really ?"
"You needed to let your anger out. I just would have prefer that you'd do it with me."
"I couldn't. No way. I didn't know this side of me and there was no way you would see it."
"I'm here for that. You need to let me in. In everything. I want to know the entire Spencer Reid even if it would surprise me. Now let me clean your hands because that's what you did to me and we're here for each other.

She went into the bathroom and i followed her. Her movements were so gentle and slow. She was scared of hurting me more than what i did. When we finished we went back to the living room to take the dishes to the kitchen. June stayed there watching me doing the dishes. When i finished i dried my hands looking at her.

"Are you okay ?" I asked her.
"Yeah i'm fine why ?"
"Just to make sure. And your back ?"
"I think the bandage needs to be changed." She murmured turning her face towards the living room.
"I'll do it. Come in the bedroom and lay down on the bed i'll bring everything i need."
She just left. I knew she wasn't comfortable with this situation.

POV June

I was on the bed waiting for Spencer and i could feel my hands shaking. I had to trust him completely to let him see me half naked again even if the bath was still in my mind.
I removed my shirt to make it easier for him. I just laid down waiting. I could feel the skin beginning to close but i also could feel the knife cutting me.

POV Spencer

When i was sure i had everything i went into the room and saw June on the bed.

She stayed like that even if she knew i was there so i sat on the bed and began removing the bandages she had. I tried to be careful because i could feel her shaking under my touch.

"Spencer ?" She asked me suddenly.
That's when i became aware that i was looking at her back for a few minutes.
"Yeah sorry." I answered ashamed.
"Don't be i know it's ugly."
"No no it's not. It's healing." I replied touching softly her back. She giggled.
"Stop it it tickles." She said laughing. For once my touch wasn't painful for her.
"Sorry."

When i finished i helped her sitting and i gave her her shirt seeing she was hiding her breast to me.
After putting it on she turned around and looked at me.

"The bruises are getting better." I said.
"I know. Euh ... i have some physical therapy tomorrow. Do you think you could come with me ?" She asked me.
"I'll try to be there. Do you need me to bring you ?"
"No don't worry about it an ambulance is going to get me."
"Ok."
"Will you help me get in the chair ?" She asked.
"No i want to read to you. Stay there it's more comfortable." She looked at me curiously.

I went in the living room to search for the book i wanted. When i found it i went back to the room finding June already under the covers.
"You look pretty cozy there. Would you mind if i joined you ?"
"Come in it's cold."
I went under the blankets with her trying to avoid physical contact respecting her but to my surprise she came towards me and put her head on my chest. First i was surprised but then i began feeling really good like home and i began reading to her one of my mom's favorite book.