After Mockingjay: I Need You

Chapter 1

I just sit here on the cold staircase, watching the hours tick by. What's left, my sister is dead and everyone else I loved (which wasn't a lot) is gone.

Peeta went insane

Haymitch is never sober.

My mother can't face it that Prim is gone so she moved.

Gale...moved to District 2.

I am all alone in this world. It's my fault Annie never visits me. I killed her husband, not on purpose but I did. Once her son comes into this world he will never have a father figure because Annie won't move on, and why should she.

Johanna, I don't know what happened to her. One minute she was here in Victor's Village and the next she left. I don't know what hit her. But she might have been my only friend if she stayed.

No one checks on me accept my doctor who has changed often. Her name is Dr. Fanzà. She makes sure I haven't killed myself or something like that. I never thought something of the sort till she started calling me.

I never go out, Greasy Sae comes to give me my meals for the day which I toss out the back window where the woodland creature feast on it. I only eat my lunch. What's the point, I sit here and grieve for my sister then go cry about my loses. What kind of life is that? I might be free from the games in reality but in my heart it never goes away. The only thing good out of those games was meeting Peeta. I will never see him again but I think he's glad of that for more reasons then one. How could he have loved me before, I gave him nothing! Just a sad little girl that need attention I guess. And all he ever paid attention too was me. I never gave him the love in return and I am guilty for that.

I know someone I can survive without, me.

I don't know where to turn right now and as far as I am conserned I don't need to go very far because no one needs me. Not anymore.

Peeta will probably come back, tell me that he can't be around me because he'll hurt me. I'll invite him in to stay and he'll just leave like the rest of them always do. No one loves me. They did, before Snow came along. He just ruined my chances of happiness. I loved Peeta.

There I said it, after he hit the forcefield I realized I could never survive without him.

I eventually pull myself out of my deep thoughts and make my way up to my empty bedroom. I can't even look to the left room, that's where my sister laid once before. I catch my tears before the fall and I storm into the room, slamming the door in my tracks.

Why couldn't I have been the one that got hijacked? Why couldn't I have been blown up? Not my precious Prim. Or the sweetest soul, Peeta. He never needed that. All he needed was me to be there for him and I never was. I am again startled by a unfamiliar sound, the doorbell ring.

"Go away whoever you are!" I retort, "I don't need you to bother me!"

"Sheesh Sweetheart, fiesty little one!" Haymitch.

"GO AWAY HAYMITCH!"

I hear the door knock jiggle so I race myself as fast as I can down the stairs, faster than I have seen myself in months. I use the body weight I have left to lean on the door. But that's no match for Haymitch as I am only 100lb. He's huge, well, no fat about 170lb.

He basically busts the door open and I fall to the tile.

"Now that's what you get for not eating!"

"How did you-"

"I am not stupid, maybe drunk, but not stupid enough to walk over and see your tossing your food to the animals."

"Don't tell anyone."

"Too late sweeatheart."

God I hate pet names.

"WHAT THE HECK!" I am about to punch his gut but his large fists grab hold of my fragile ones.

"Easy there mockingjay."

"Don't use that nickname."

"Okay, anyways I am staying with you till the boy comes back, he should be back on the next few days, till then show me around make me comfortable."

"You are not staying here."

"ehh, yeah I am."

This is going to be a long few days.

IMPORTANT AUTHORS NOTE!!!

(AUTHORS NOTE- I am new at this WattPad writing thing, how do you add new pages? I know how to add more words but like new chapters. I write on my iPad so do I need to type this on my computer, tell me either one and I will write on which way people tell me how to make chapters. Thank you for reading, commenting and voting! It really helps!)