Addiction

Chapter 1

*2 Years Later*
Eva's POV

"Isak, stop staring at her! She now obviously knows that I was talking about her!" I say as Isak, Jonas' best friend, stares at Ingrid who sits with her new group of girls.

"Well I can't help it that she's a bitch to not only to you but also to Jonas and I." I nod my head and finally Jonas shows up.

"Where were you?" I try to say in a nonchalant tone but instead it comes out frantic.

"I was talking to Elias. He invited us to a third year party on Friday." Isak nodded and sent a little prayer to God about him getting laid this weekend while I cringed at the thought.

"No thanks." I said while checking my phone to see if I had any unread messages from my nonexistent friends.

"Come on Eva. You say this every time we get invited. This is the year we party and get close with the third years so we can be friends and right now I think you need some." He said shamelessly. Isak gave me a look and even knew what I was feeling after Jonas stated that I was unfriendly and practically a loser.

"What is that supposed to mean?" I retort back and I can tell that my reaction has clicked in his mind.

"I'm not calling you lonely or a loser, I'm just saying that maybe you can get to know people there and what's the word...um..expand your friend group." Jonas looks at Isak who gives him a thumbs up at his smooth move of saving his sorry ass.

"Well I'm not going." I said dominantly while grabbing my bag and putting it on.

"Fine. We won't go." Jonas says and I know that he means that he will go without me and lie about being there to me when I try and call him later on.

"Don't lie. I know you're gonna go." I say and he laughs nervously because he knows that my accusation is true. I stomp away in annoyance and Isak follows after me.

"Look Eva, he just wants to have a nice night with you. Have you ever thought that he wants to show you off?" I look at him and an expression of kindness is on his cute baby face.

"Fine. We can go. BUT don't expect me to leave with a new best friend." I say while pointing my finger at him. Isak nods and says that he will tell Jonas and hugs me tightly before he runs off. I watch him run off and tell Jonas who was watching from afar and they bro hug and celebrate that I am letting us go to this stupid party.

...

KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK

I turn towards my window that leads into my room and I see Jonas waiting there for me. I get off of my bed and open the window for him and he slides into my dim room. He grabs my waist and pulls me in for a breathtaking kiss. My lips attach to his and we walk backwards until we hit my bed. He falls onto me yet our lips never part. He stops to take a breath and then speaks up.

"Thank you for letting us go." He says and the mood is suddenly gone.

"Yeah of course." I say while looking at him, admiring his facial features like how I usually do.

"I feel bad. I mean like I feel like I forced you." A sad expression is now corrupting his face and it makes me feel sympathetic when I shouldn't. He technically made me feel bad and I gave in which is him forcing me.

"Don't make me change my mind." As I say that, Jonas smiles and kisses me to shut me up.  I smile into the kiss and as I do my subconscious reminds me of the dreadful party that I had agreed to.

"I love you." I stated which made his face light up. He kissed me passionately which was his way of saying that he loved me too.

...

"I'll call you." Jonas tells me as soon as he's outside of my window.

"Okay be safe." I say as I watch him turn and go home. I shut my window and turn off my lamp on my nightstand before collapsing against my bed.

That night I dream of the terrible things that could possibly happen that would jeopardize our relationship, not only as a couple but also as best friends.

My nightmares keep me up for majority of the night but it's not like anything unusual because this is my daily routine. To continue the routine, I walk over to my dresser and hiding in the back corner are sleeping pills. My mother often hides them from me since she fears me being addicted but me taking pills every once in a while technically isn't an addiction. I shakily open the top and out pop two which are thrown into my mouth. I swallow them and wait for the chemicals to kick in.

Soon enough they do and my head rests gently against the stiff pillow. My eyes flutter close and my lucid dreams have now vanished into darkness.