Addiction

Chapter 10

Eva's POV

I woke up the next morning with immense pain shooting throughout my body. I laid on my back and began to groan from the pain. I lifted myself up and walked over to the bathroom within my room. As I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw my open wound from last night had grown red and looked like it was beginning to become infected. I grabbed some alcohol and a bandage from the lower cupboard. I gently cleaned the wound and placed the bandage on before realizing that I had school once again.

I threw on a pair of black skinny jeans, black vans and a black top while wrapping the jean jacket around my waist as I always did when I wore this outfit. I decided against make up before thinking to myself about what Jonas will think. He's never told me I was beautiful without makeup so my split decision is suddenly changed as I put on my whole face and dark eyeliner. My eyes looked like shit but since I was in a rush, I couldn't help my appearance.

I bolted out the door and stood at the corner to meet Isak and Jonas just as we always did. I watched them walk side by side before seeing a petite figure behind them. As Jonas stopped, he placed his lips on mine and passionately kissed me more so than ever before. I could tell it was because of Ingrid and yet I wasn't going to compete one bit. I continued to kiss him, moving my lips in sync with his, until he pulled away. As I looked up, Ingrid had her eyes wide and a death glare in them for both Jonas and I. Jonas walked past me with Isak before I realized that I would be walking into the school with my 'boyfriend' and his lover.

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We stood on the familiar landing as yesterday, Ingrid standing behind me. As Jonas and I talked about making plans tonight, I could feel her eyes looking me up and down as if she were a hungry predator who was getting ready to devour its prey.

"I'll come over around nine tonight. Sound good?" He says curiously while waiting for my response.

"That sounds fine. I'll order in some food for us. Can I ask why so late?" I took the risk to question him and I knew it was a dangerous position.

"I'll be a little busy with Ingrid.." He stated while looking over my shoulder and making obscene gestures towards her before leaning towards me and whispering in my ear once more.

"Don't worry baby. I won't fuck her. I'll save that for you tonight." I cringed at his harsh words and tone before nodding compliantly. He leaves a sloppy kiss to my neck and I hear Ingrid groan in annoyance before she speaks up.

"I don't get why you stay with her! She looks like a fucking whore with her shitty makeup and we all know who fucks you better here. I don't get why you just leave her, obviously Penetrator Chris wants her. Why can't he have her and you get me all to yourself?" She exclaims, jealousy showing throughout her whole outburst. Jonas laughs before he walks over to Ingrid, placing his hand delcately on her cheek. I can tell that she made a mistake for saying that by what Jonas does next.

"You ever say that again, the worst will come to you. How about we show her what happened last night Eva?" Jonas comes over to me, lifts up my shirt and then rips off the bandage to show the red wound that is on my hip bone. The cold air running through the halls burns agaisnt my skin and I cringe in pain. Ingrid's eyes bulge out somewhat and I can tell that Jonas hasn't ever threatened her like that before by her sudden reaction.

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I sit patiently on the couch waiting for Jonas to show up since time was growing closer to nine. I had taken off my makeup and now lounged in a pair of spandex and a tank top. The food that I had ordered began to grow cold and I was eager to eat it but I decided to wait for Jonas, just to be kind and not get myself into any sort of trouble. About fifteen minutes went by until I heard the back door open, knowing it was Jonas. He walked slowly to me and I stood up to greet him passionately as he would have wished. He surprisingly wasn't drunk or high and I wondered what tonight was going to be like with a sober Jonas.

He looked me up and down with hungry eyes and my imagination reminded me of how Chris did the same thing when we first met. I shake Chris out of my thoughts quickly and come back to reality. Jonas is now holding my waist, pressing my body against his so I can feel his bulge within his skinny jeans. The feeling of him against me makes me shiver and my body reacts as it always has in this situation. My hormones raise and I try to calm myself down so I don't end up doing something I'll regret.

"I have food here if you want to eat." I say with a shaky voice while Jonas bites his plump bottom lip. His eyes stare at my lips and I feel vulnerable under his gaze. He leans forwards and places a seductive kiss to my neck before whispering in my ear.

"You wanna know what I want? What sounds good to me?" He says and I shake my head to say no before he conects his lips to my ear and speaks again.

"I think you know baby." He says before moving his hand down my body, ligering on my weak spots. Goosebumps form on my skin and a shiver of warmth sends throughout my body. His hand stops on my area and suddenly my hormones take over.

My lips connect with his passionately which surprises him at how eager I am. As I press myself against him, he groans in pleausre and it makes me happy to know that I affect him better than Ingrid ever could. He lifts me up by my ass and my legs wrap around him as he carries me all the way down to my room. The door slams shut once Jonas and I are inside, mistakes being made easily and carelessly for the next few hours.

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His body laid beside mine in the bed, sprawled out and hogging majority of it. I sat up, staring at him and his naked body, contemplating if I had just made the biggest mistake of my entire life or if I had made a sacrifice to save myself. Tears began to form in my eyes, eventually falling out one by one as I sit in my own filth. He rolls over and luckily doesn't open his eyes. I stare at him for a moment wondering how many times he had laid in Ingrid's bed after doing the scandalous things we had just done.

I closed my eyes slowly, trying to sleep but horrendous nightmares of what Jonas and I just did come into play. I lay down next to him and as soon as he does, he pulls me close to his naked body then leaves a seductive kiss to my neck that leaves a terrible feeling in the pit of my stomach as if I had just ruined myself even more than I could imagine.