Addiction

Chapter 9

*Eva's Outfit above*
Eva's POV

I lay in bed and dread going to school. Knowing that I'll have to fake being in love with Jonas while I want to be with Chris. Knowing Chris will be with Iben and Jonas with Ingrid breaks my heart a little bit more.

Things will get better.

I repeat that over and over until the words are embedded into my brain as if it were a tattoo. I look at my wrists and suddenly memories of last night comes into play. The hungry look in Jonas' eyes and the malicious tone of his that could scare anyone. The bruises that covered my wrists began to grow dark today and I thought of wearing something to cover both areas of my body that contain bruises from 'the love of my life'. 

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I walked in the shadows of Isak and Jonas once we got to the large school. The farther we got into the school, the more I could tell that people had seen the post of Ingrid's about Jonas. They stared at us and some even whispered as we all continued along throughout the corridors. I managed to keep my head down and eventually Isak left us to go to his class, leaving me and the devil to our lonesome. We stood on the landing of the stairs that we usually met at in the morning before class and he took a step towards me to close the gap between us. He placed his hand on my hip and I flinched at his touch before he placed his hand on my face. He touched me as delicately as he could and I tired to imagine Chris' soft hands touching me instead of his.

"You are being so good babe." He says to me and my heart cries out in pain at his use of the word 'babe'. As he says that, Chris walks side by side with William up the stairs and Jonas' eyes switch over to him. Chris looks at me and he smiles before he realizes who I am with. William and Chris stops and William gives me a small wave before Chris speaks up.

"What are you doing with her?" He spat at Jonas which only fueled the anger within. 

"She's my girlfriend again. Stay away from her." Jonas says while getting up in front of Chris' perfect face. I wanted to pull him back but I was afraid of the consequences. I looked down at the ground before Chris speaks up.

"Or what? You gonna beat me up?" He says while clenching his fists together in case of Jonas throwing a punch towards him. Jonas comes over to me as I watch his hand move towards my neck, I shut my eyes tightly and prepare for the worst. He moves down my maroon turtleneck, showing to Chris and William the horror of our relationship.

"That's what will happen but trust me ten times worse than last time. Stay away from her or you could as well be blamed for her pain." Jonas says to Chris with a shove towards the stairs going upwards. His back hits the stairs and my mind reminds me of yesterday when Chris was shoved into my delicate book case. I took a step towards him and as I did, Jonas grabbed my arm harshly. I stopped in my tracks and knew that I had made a huge mistake. 

Once Chris and William walked away, Jonas looked at me and spoke again.

"Give me a kiss." He demanded and I leaned in to give him a kiss. As my lips touched his, he bit my lip which made me gasp in pain and gave him leverage to shove his tongue in my mouth. He tasted of smoke and my whole body cringed at the horrendous taste.

...

"This is good shit." Jonas says after taking a hit from the bong Isak passed to him. I was light headed from all of the secondhand smoke Jonas was blowing in my face. He claimed it was sexy when Ingrid let him do it but since Ingrid was busy, I had to fill in for her sorry ass as his girlfriend.

Jonas passed me the bong and as I touched the bong, my whole body jerked in a unhealthy way as if my body knew that what he was giving me was bad for me.

"Take a hit babe." He said while giving me a dangerous look. He showed me how to do it and eventually, I forced myself to take a hit. I breathed in and kept the harsh tasting smoke in my mouth before blowing it out. The THC affected my body differently than ever before and I hated it. I was his puppet and I couldn't do anything about it without hurting myself.

He stole the bong out of my hands and passed it back over to Isak before pulling my face towards. His lips connected with mine roughly and I was forced into a make out session suddenly which make Isak cringe a little. I pulled away to catch a breath and as I did, Jonas grabbed my neck in the exact way he did days ago. The memories flooded as he roughly hit all of the bruises, pain shot throughout my body as a reminder he had control. I kissed him once again and he loosened his grip. As we kissed awkwardly, Isak spoke up.

"You guys are into some kinky shit." He exclaims with a laugh that made Jonas pull away and look at me with a devilish smirk. After taking a few more hits, Jonas and I finally left Isak's place. We stumbled towards my house and my brain began to panic with the thoughts of terrible things that could happen once we get to my place.

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He laid on top of me, kissing my shirtless body that laid in front of him and I silently let tears escape my eyes. His lips were chapped and rough against my skin which felt terrible all together.

"Does this feel good baby?" he said against my body as he made his way down to my pants. I forced myself to stop crying and speak up with a confident voice.

"Yes." I muttered with a shaky voice. He laughed against my skin before sinking his teeth into my hip bone. I cried out in pain as he bit hard and suddenly I felt my skin break open. He came back up with blood on his lips and I knew it was my own.

"That's for trying to take care of your bitch today when I shoved him. Don't think that I would forget such a thing even though I'm high." He spat at me before pressing his thumb on my new open wound. Once he was standing up, he left without another word and all I could was cry while wondering what I did to deserve such cruel actions from a monster that I was forced to love.