Imperfect Perfection (Sequel to The Light in the Dark)

Time will fly

"What if something happens to it?" Zach asks with one hand on my stomach. "Like the last one."

"I'll try harder I promise." I say and close my eyes for a minute.

"It was never you Holly. You know that. Even the doctor told you that." Zach sighs. Our baby died around the time of the accident with Ginny. Right before actually. Everything was just so hectic and I feel like I zoned out for a lot of it. After is when everything hit in one heartbreaking moment. Zach and I were both just broken and Tyler stayed with Kacy for long periods of time.

"I know. I just feel like my body couldn't handle it or something." I shrug.

"No, no it wasn't your fault we know that." It was in the first trimester which was somewhat common and I never even got to figure out the gender. I feel like if that ever happened to me again, then I might just die inside.

"Okay." I said and opened my eyes to look at him. Through the hardest time of our lives, I tried to remember that he was hurting too.

"Okay." Zach replied looking up from my stomach to my face. When I first met him sometimes I had a hard time looking him in the eye, but now his sharp Amber eyes soften for me.

"Okay." I sink into the couch with my head now pushing against Zach's chest.

"Holly." Zach whispers and put a hand on the back of my neck. "It's going to be alright."

I look at him for a minute and come to a conclusion that either he is really good at lying or he is telling the truth.

"Promise?" I whisper in the softest voice while putting my hand on Zach's hand that was on my stomach.

"Promise." Zach says equally as quiet and uses his hand behind my neck to pull my head up and kiss the top of my head. "I wouldn't lie to you."

"Okay." I nod. "I'm going to go check on Tyler okay?"

"Yeah." Zach says and kisses my temple as I start to stand up. "I'm going to go shower alright?"

"That works." I agree and push open the door to Tyler's room. "Hey buddy." I didn't know if I should say something about the baby to him. Could be keep it a secret?

"Hi mommy." Tyler whispers. His bed is adorable and is shaped like a car. I sit at the bottom of his bed and he sits up and crawls down beside of me.

"You think you can keep a secret?" I ask and Tyler just nods his head enthusiastically.

"Well what's your opinion on a little brother or sister?" I ask.

"I don't like girls." He says. "They chase me when we go to gym in day care."

"But what if they didn't chase you?"

"Well your a girl and I love you so... yeah I guess why?" Tyler asked truly in deep thought.

"Now you can't tell anyone this not even Haley or Kya." I tell him sternly. Tyler nods and bends his neck up to look at me. "Your going to have a baby brother or sister."

"Really?" Tyler exclaims. "When can I meet them?"

"You'll have to wait a'while but time flies." I promise.

"Mkay! Well tell me when we get closer!" Tyler says bouncing slightly on his bed.

"You'll know I promise." I say and smile. "Goodnight." I say and kiss his head.

"Goodnight mommy." Tyler replies and hugs my neck.

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"I told him. Seemed excited I guess." I say smiling and siting down on the bed.

"That's good I guess." Zach says.

"I was thinking maybe if it was a girl we could name her Ginny?" I shrug avoiding his gaze.

"I don't know if I could do it or not. Having to look a kid in the face every day and call her Ginny." Zach shrugs too then looks down at me. "Let's not think about that yet, okay?"

"I get what you mean." I nod. "Let's sleep on it."

"Okay. I love you." Zach says still looking at me.

"Go to sleep." I joke and pull my knees closer to my chest. "Not to soon j won't be able to do this." I say talking about my knees being that close to my chest.

"Goodnight." Zach laughs and reaches over to the lamp that was on when I walked in.

"Goodnight." I smile and close my eyes.

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Authors note!

Thanks for reading!! This book wasn't planned to get this far but it's hard to end Zach and Hollys story so I just won't yet😂

Darcy🌻🌻