Hostage

Hostage (10)

I spent most of my time now with Alex. It was not like Ricky was ever

around. when he was I was a good little actress. I went alone with

everything he did to me, but now that I was thinking clearly and I knew

he didn't care about me it felt different. I could tell him, how I knew

and we could stop pretending but he wouldn't stop. he wanted to sleep

with someone even if it was me he just had to fill his desires. so I

just played along. he was taking to many drugs now and sometimes hurt me

but not too badly. I was more afraid of him hurting me worse or killing

me if I refused him.

both Tyler and Alex knew it all and what happened but neither said a

thing. I told them not to. I didn't want them hurt and though they were

worried for my safety I told them I would be the safest by just

doing as Ricky said.

though some of the drugs Ricky had came in use. not all were illegal and

some were pain killers which helped a lot. I managed home life pretty

well. my parents were used to it by now and my brother, often would fight

with me. he had the feeling that something more was going on but I of

course always denied it. I spent many days with kenzie afterschool so

that not wanting to hang on weekends wasn't so odd.

Alex and Tyler always made sure nothing happened when I was

out anywhere and I have been out a lot lately. any chance we could go

out together we did. but on rainy nights like tonight we normally

chilled out indoors.

tonight we had Tyler's iPod blasting and were dancing around like

maniacs. I didn't dance much; to embarrassed I danced horribly, that is

until my favorite song came on and I went nuts rocking out to it. the

boys thought it was rather hysterical and danced like crazy with me.

at another song, a not so crazy one, I was a little closer with

Alex. he was dancing with me, his hands on my waist. this song was a

good one as well and I loved to dance to it, especially with Alex right

there with me.

it wasn't long until finally my sides hurt so bad I could barely move

and I couldn't catch my breath, from dancing so much. I dropped on to the couch panting. Alex

dropped next to me and Tyler on the other side. he shut the iPod off and

we sat there catching our breaths. our breathing was so heavy we

ended up laughing at how funny we looked and sounded. I ended up

laughing so hard I started choking. Alex got up and got me some water

which I took gratefully.

after we had all rested I called the shower first. I was super sweaty.

after a long shower I got some snacks and chose some movies as the while