I.O.U a fall

Chapter 21

Sherlock was even more depressed than ever, not just because he had found out why John gave his life but because he, Sherlock Holmes was the reason why and Sherlock never knew. That night, that awful night when the doctor had turned up was still in Sherlock's mind, for some strange reason Sherloc couldn't help feeling like this whole thing wasn't over, that it was just beginning.

however, ever since the doctor did nothing for Sherlock, he started to forget things it was like his life was over. every time Sherlock closed his eyes, even just for a moment, Johns face appeared and Sherlock got flashbacks of that day, the day everything changed. the day John jumped. Sherlock could feel his heart ripping every time he thought of John and a tear always rolled down his face. Sherlock was a mess he couldn't think of anything to do anymore and even if he did it was never satisfying, the truth was Sherlock misses John more than ever since the doctor came and Sherlock blamed himself for Johns death.

Mrs Hudson had always loved Sherlock from the day he came to live at 211b but now that Sherlock has gotten depressed more than ever, Mrs Hudson didn't know what to do she had tried everything for Sherlock but nothing, nothing could bring John back.

Mrs Hudson " come on Sherlock, please do something, anything to get your mind of him" Mrs Hudson asked one afternoon when she found Sherlock upside-down sitting on the chair. Sherlock shuck his head violently and sat up.

Sherlock " you know what Mrs Hudson its my fault. MINE. its all my fault, everything is always my fault. why is it always me what have I done to deserve this? all I want is my best friend back but its my fault he is dead!" Sherlock took a sip from a bottle of whisky he was holding in his left hand, half the bottle was gone and Sherlock was very close to drinking it all.

Mrs Hudson " oh Sherlock its not your fault, it was never your fault, never I don't why he did it but there must be a good reason and don't you for one second think that it is your fault, Sherlock." Mrs Hudson gave a sigh and Sherlock spilled a bit of whisky onto the carpet he was obviously not paying attention to Mrs Hudson and was very drunk. "Jesus Sherlock not on the carpet" Mrs Hudson walked over to Sherlock and grabbed the bottle from Sherlock's hand and left Sherlock to cry.

not many people can put up with Sherlock being Sherlock but John did, the both of them loved what they did solving crimes together. Sherlock remembered something he had said to John awhile ago the thrill in the chase, the blood pumping through our veins, just the two of us against the rest of the world! Sherlock thought would never leave him it was always going to be them two, forever but everything changed from then on nothing mattered to Sherlock and nothing would matter to him for the rest of his life not until John came back from the dead and was back at 221b with Sherlock solving crimes together.