My Poems in LIFE

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Hi there fellow readers sorry for not updating for awhile my phone broke and now it's fix so I can now update again, yay!

(Warning random rants ahead about life😑😣😕)

But I won't be updating many poems anytime soon cause I've been going through "depression" ? Is that what you call it--- I don't really know

I just have so many problems but most of them is not that bad but, most of them needs to be solved on which where I have to decide!

And the worst part of being me is I am so bad at making decisions for myself-— I don't know why I really need someone to talk to or to chat with I just feel so freaking useless and just a disappointment

(Warning attempt of......💇🔪🙋[you get what I mean right]..)

I just want to open a vent here or scar myself cause I feel numb right about now

If it isn't a sin to kill yourself I would gladly do it but I can't I'm scared of what will happen next, I'm scared of what I might left behind if I left, I'm scared that I might hurt someone because of me being weak, I'm scared of what they might think of me when I die, and above all I'm scared that I might not be able to see God because I scarred the body he created for me and killing myself would only make it worse...

I'm so glad that I get so paranoid with this thing's the things I said will be in my head forming pictures in my imagination so I might think of what it would look like if that happened,

And because of that I can only think that maybe God wants me to decide and "do the right thing or way not what is easy"

Well I guess that solves my problem.....Not quite...Yet

Sorry for the bother of reading this I just want to let out some of my bottled up emotions

But thanks for listening or in your case reading this, I really appreciate it so much thank you🙌

PS. Sorry for being crazy and being me

Peace✌ Zudotakiku out---