My Poems in LIFE

I'm So Stupid

Look at them smiling
Look at them laughing
Look at me, sad and sulking
Look at me who's heart's longing

Even if it hurts my chest
I'll smile and look at them
Even if I'm the only one left
I'll stay strong for them

I'll just laugh thinking that *I'm so stupid*
And they'll look at me saying "What's wrong?"
I'll laugh and say "I just remembered something stupid!"
Then they'll just say nothing cause nothing seems wrong

While they go back on what they're talking
I'll just stare at their backs, just looking
I'll just smile not minding of what's happening
But on the inside my heart starts crushing

I'm happy for them
Even if they ignore me
And laugh for them
Even if they don't really know 'me'

They don't know that I'm depressed as shit
Or the fact that I cry every time I go to sleep
Or the time where I really want to kill myself
Cause no one really loves a mess up, like myself

They only know the jolly me
The one who loves arts stuff, like me
Who's obsessed on drawings, like me
The one who's weak, ugly, fat, and a stupid whiny baby- yet talented....like...me

That's all they really know
That is all they know about me
That I'm sweet and childish, where I never learn to grow
And that's what they'll only know about me

But I guess God has plans for me
Though I want to end this
So I'm sorry, please forgive me
It hurts, I can't take this
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"JULIE!!"
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"Be careful on where your walking!"
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"You almost got ran over!!"
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"What were your thinking!? "
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"We thought we'd lost you.."
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Such warmth embraced me
And worried remarks are said
And so on..
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Until I realized and laughed of the stupidity that I did
Hot warm tears ran down my face, I said
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"I-I'm sorry.."

-Zudotakikurose

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Bloopers:
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"I'm sorry.."
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"Pfft..hahaha!!"
"This is not even a laughing matter!!" "how can you even laugh!?"
"Haha!!...I'm so sorry it's just so funny, haha xD"
"You're such a-" "Oh my g!" " you're driving me crazy!"
"Aww... I love too, you guys😜"

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Haha, hi guys did you like the bloopers sorry if the poem is a little depressing just got to let some things out to make me feel a little better

But hope you guys are safe and having a pleasant day though I need to go so bye guys see you soon👋😄