Christopher

Chapter 13

Christopher was sitting there staring at the bed Rosemary used to sleep in. He wouldn't admit it but he had been sleeping in her room since the day she left. He didn't know where she was but now he needed to know. He had been an ass to her and he couldn't forgive himself how could he have said so many hurtful things to her. She had been a virgin and terrified when they slept together and he had gone to call her a whore and so many other names. He felt lower than low and he didn't know how but he was going to fix this. He loved her and would always love her. He never in million years thought he would get two chances at being happy but he had and he was ecstatic. He stared at her bed and then remember the letter how could he have forgotten. He walked into his room and grabbed the letter stuck in his blazer. He wanted to read it but right now there were more important things to do.

He walked into Aries room and sat on her bed. "Aries do you love Rosemary?'

"Yes!" she jumped up happy.

"Do you want her to be with us and the baby to be with us?"

"Yes daddy! Yes, daddy please!"

"Okay well then I need you to tell me Aries, where Rosemary is because I know you know where she is."

"If I tell you will you bring her back and she can be my mommy?" Aries looked at her daddy with so much hope in her eyes.

"Yes baby girl!" he smiled widely.

"She is with grandma and grandpa in the house." she looked at him like duh how did you miss that one. 

Part of him wanted to feel betrayed the other was happy because he was about to have his family complete. He changed Arabella and got in the car but on his way to the house he realized that his brother also lived in the house and that was probably why she was there and slowed down a little.

"She loves you." he heard Arabella say in the back seat absentmindedly.

"What?" he turned to look at her thru the mirror.

"Yeah she told me she loved you but that you loved mommy so much there was no room for her in your heart and I was thinking daddy... that a heart can grow and make room for more people. You can love mommy and be with Rosemary and the baby and we can both be happy."

He smiled at her "When did you get so smart?"

"Haha daddy I have always been smart silly." She giggled looking at him and breathed looking out the window smiling he could see her feet swinging and knew his princess was excited for them to get his queen home.

He pulled into his parents' house and saw that his brother's car was missing, they went in and one the maids walked up smiling and her smile disappeared when he appeared. This was his nanna the women who had helped raise him.

"Christopher shouldn't...."

"Nanna I know I am an idiot but for now I just really need to talk to Rosemary right now please nanna."

She looked at him really confused. "she is in the hospital son... she had some c..."

"Which one?"

"Were we always took you boys."

He ran out the door strapped in Aries and raced to the hospital. He got there as they were wheeling Rosemary into the back. He ran up with Aries in his arms to her and Kevin who was pushing her.

He kneeled in front of her with Aries in his arms. "I am so sorry but I love you more than I thought would ever be possible and you and Aries are my life... and so is this little baby here I love you so much please...Are you okay?" he wrapped her in a hug and couldn't help but kiss her he could feel her tense a little but he knew with time he would make it better.

She had sweat going down her forehead and down her back and arms. "I love you too even if you've been an ass but there is something wrong our babies...oww... they are not due for another month and a half." he could see her fear but also anger "We have a lot to talk about but right now we just need to make sure they are okay."

"Shhh..." he pulled her into a hug. "let's figure it out okay...come one." Aries was holding her hand and Christopher stood and looked his brother in the eye. "Excuse me." He took the wheelchair and followed the nurse back. Kevin smiled to himself and sat in the waiting room.

As they tried to switch her into the bed from the wheelchair she made a suffocating noise and collapsed but Christopher caught her.

"No! Rosemary no please baby don't leave me! Hey! Come back!" Christopher was shaking her slowly rubbing her arms and back.

"Sir put her on the bed so we can help her!" it took a few times of saying It for him to listen and then placed her. A few minutes later she was wheeled into surgery without saying anything except her and the baby couldn't breathe.

Christopher had been sitting in the waiting room for over an hour when a doctor walked up and asked if it came down to Rosemary and the baby who should they save and what do you say to that. He couldn't say anything so he said no save them both or you decide I can't. That was over six hours ago and the breath that Christopher had been holding on to had left his body hours ago. Arabella was sleeping next to him on two chairs and using his suit jacket as a cover. He played with her hair over and over again while he silently cried. He was going to lose the women he loved again and this time he would die.

Losing Arabelle he thought was the worst thing that ever happened and now he realized it was not because of course he loved her and loved her more than the world but with Rosemary it was different he didn't love her more than his whole world, she was his whole world. He had made a lot of mistakes but he would make sure that he would spend the rest of their lives together making her happy. He was playing with Aries hair. She moved and the coat fell off and he put it back on put he felt the card that Rosemary had wrote him. He slowly opened and unfolded it.

'Dear Christopher,

I can't describe to you how much I love you. I do in like a crazy watch stupid sports with you that I hate and pretend to like your taste in music, which sucks on both counts baseball and hookey are better than football and basketball and panic of the disco rocks. But none the less I actually thought when we first had that moment that we had a chance but I guess with time I realized that Arabelle still owns your heart and that is something that I won't or I guess I refuse to mess with. I was willing to pretend nothing happened even though you were my first but then I got sick the first time. I was watching you and Arabella play in the backyard and I could not help but wish that I was your wife and that Aries could be my daughter always remembering Arabelle of course. I stood to go out there and play with you both and I felt nauseated and I ran to the restroom where I threw up. It happened a few times before I suspected what was happening I was very naïve about these things and when I figured it out I guess I was scared. Then when I fell off the ladder and went to the doctor they informed me I was pregnant I still didn't believe it and then I took a test again to make sure but of course I was. I was so excited I felt like I was on cloud nine and I was about to tell you but one thing led to another one but then I got kicked out. It hurt so much because all I wanted to do was be in your arms and tell you that the baby that was in me was yours. Then you called me back and I had never been so excited I thought you had figured it out and you knew but then you said all those things and I just couldn't stand to see you anymore so I left. as much as I love you, I knew your actions were affecting my health and therefore the babies. I left this letter knowing full well with your stubbornness you would not read it for a long time. Hopefully you did eventually and you know about the twins because there are twins in me. Its two can you believe it twins and a boy and a girl. I am excited and I hope by now you are to. Your brothers here so I have to go. Your brother has always had my back and he is willing to help me at least until I get on my feet so that's why I am going with him and your parents at least for a while.

All my love Rosemary

"Mr. Blake?" Christopher looked up and made eye contact with the doctor and he felt even more tears spill out of his eyes as he took the doctors face in he had seen this exact look once before in his life he just only hoped that this doctor was worried about his girl and their twins and not here to deliver the news that would break every piece of him.