I thought about you today
An orchard and a rap song you love
That's what did it this time
Remember when i was nine and you were ten
We went to that party and were supposed to play soccer
But instead we went to the playground
And we talked until you realized i wasn't that bad
Remember when i was ten and you were eleven
We promised we'd watch your siblings
But instead we ditched them
And explored the orchard ourselves
Remember when i was eleven and you were twelve
We were forced to go to a bouncy castle park to socialize with other kids
But instead we sat on the most secluded castle together
And made fun of the other losers
Remember when i was twelve and you were thirteen
We had to say goodbye to each other because i was moving away
But neither of us wanted to
And our relationship was never the same
Remember when I was thirteen and you were fourteen
We saw each other at a gathering and we almost said 'hello'
But instead we gave small waves and awkward smiles from across the room
And then didn't see each other for another year
Remember when i was fourteen and you were fifteen
We had dinner when our families wanted to see each other again
But instead of catching up we simply rolled our eyes at your siblings
And that was surprisingly enough
I'm fifteen now and you're sixteen
We haven't spoken in such a long time
I wonder if you remember i exist
If you remember the fun we had
Sometimes i get a feeling you don't
That its been swiped from your memory
And that's okay
I guess
Next time i see you it will be awkward
Next time i see you we won't chat
Next time i see you my brain will be screaming, hands shaking, heart racing
Next time i see you you'll give my that smirky smile i love to see
And then we'll go home
Until next year
It's just what happens
I've come to terms with it
But that doesn't mean i dont miss you
It doesn't mean i don't sometimes long to hear your voice
Ache to see that smirky smile
Wish i could just see you
I thought about you today
An orchard and a rap song you love
That's what did it this time
That's what made me miss you
true story. crazy how trees and a certain song can bring back an entire world of worry, thoughts, feelings, hurt, happiness, and nostalgia. right? man.
