I promised I'd get you into heaven.....
But I don't even know if I can make your heart flow again and sing again to the time where we were innocent souls.
There was a time where I hadn't a care in the world until I met you. I was determined to save you. I couldn't let go. Because if I let you go I could never forgive myself for sending you to the hell below and knowing that my family was left in suffering while I rose to the heavens is no paradise for me, but a chamber of everlasting torture. You do not know of what you do but I know and my heart weeps and it all comes back like an echo.
I need to take it slow but my heart is on overdrive from all the sleepless nights I begged God to let you in, don't tell me over heaven you'd choose sin.
And every single night since I've met you I've rigorously have bargained and pleaded for your safety because heaven without you is torture, I don't need to say it again just know I need you.
Every time I see you my heart shatters into a million pieces because I'm left with the mentality of how am I going to save you? Is there a way? Or am I too late? And I can't..... I cant save you......
You do not know how much I'm torn on the inside but still for you I smile and act as if it's all alright but I know that you're the one who has to open their eyes because I can't do it for you. As much as I've screamed to God to let me change you he tells me it's up to you.....
So listen to my plea give your mind and soul to the one I call father, I promise he'll make you stronger because I don't know what'd I'd do without you and don't even make me imagine what it's like, I can't have it.
If I can't save you..... who can I save? My entire purpose just thrown down the drain.. and I know you joke about hell but don't think for a second that that'll be your home because you'll be with me. Flying and soaring the skies of heaven and we'll be happy.
Please don't throw your life away as your sister I'm begging you!! Because no little sister should grow up to see her older brothers and sisters be thrown into the fiery pits of hell because if that happened I couldn't live with myself.
I love you too much to lose you. I can't let you go because you're a part of me. I love you. I love you. I love you, with every fiber of my being I love you. And it's stupid of me to dream but let it come true please.
I love you to the world and back, I'll love you no matter what we go through, I'll love you forever until my last breath so please don't let my last goodbye be on my deathbed because I need to see you after.
I promised you I'd get you into heaven.....But now that's up to you..... so please don't do the things you do. Open your eyes to the truth..... because I love you. And I can't lose you. You're my world, you're the reason I have to fight. I know he'll make your wrongs right, and from all the dirt you'll rise into a ball of white and I'll be in tears. Happy tears. Because now I'm not alone.
