soulless

Stay with me

[ pic from above made by me ]
- Ian and Ray -

WARNING!
If you are sensitive or can't handle the death of a character <as I > please skip to the end of this chapter were you will have a summary of what happened.

* BOOM *

Ian's pov:

It was all so perfect.
It felt so good
But it vanished in seconds....
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I woke up with a dim light, probably a torch, my head ached and my heart was throbbing uncontrollably. My breathing was heavy, it hurt just to inhale.
" Oh my god, are you ok?! " a sudden voice screamed. I couldn't distinguish her from the environment, I couldn't think straight, only one thing in mind - what happened and we're is Ray -
" w-were is Ray? " I asked, with tears running through my cheeks, the woman tilted her head to the side, indicating the body next to her. It was him, there sat next to a pine tree, his face pale, " rAy! " I cried in panic " Ray, stay with me"
I raced out of the smashed car, and ran to him, even though each step I took was like walking through hell fire, but I still ran. Blood dripping out of my cuts, but it didn't matter. I hugged him, his blue eyes open staring at my soul ,then was when I just realized what I fool I was, how much of an idiot I was.
I was the one driving.
I was the one not paying attention
It was MY fault
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I collapsed in his skinny and soft arms, he leaned in with me and kissed my forehead , " it's ok, I'm alive, were alive "
The woman who had found us had called an ambulance to take us to the hospital , I didn't let to of Ray so they put us in the same ambulance and room, I felt dizzy. I was loosing him, his heart-beat decreasing by moments, the doctors trying to stabilize him but nothing worked. I leaned in to my Ray , he was paler than usual, he looked dead.
Then, with his last breath he kissed me and then whispered " I have always loved you Ian "
Then...
Well...
You know....
It's hard for me...
H-he was my friend ...
I loved him!
But...
Right now I'm fucked up...
I cried, I couldn't stop, doctors begging me to stop and rest, to let go of him. I couldn't , he was the love of my life but now he was dead, all because of me.
Wow, how do I hate myself so much.